Finding out that I’m on the spectrum and seeing all the proof in the rear-view mirror of all my previously failed social interactions gave me so much peace that I literally felt the anxiety being tranquilized in my body.
I’m sorry to say this too but like, all the times I laughed at dumb stuff, the times I made jokes constantly. Even though I dont regret those times a lot of it was a shortcut for me interfacing with people and “masking.” Realizing this has lifted a huge weight off of me