Sometimes i wonder if i shouldn’t have deleted his number. But i cant do it dude. I wanna be together and he doesnt and i cant somehow lead myself on by keeping that contact there.
Sad and wanna wipe my account..again 😪. I miss being happy and in love. But I also never wanna be in love again cause im scared it’ll just end the same. Sometimes memories suck. I had just gotten over him too. FUCK. I was so excited cause i thought he wanted to het back together
Just realized im having a manic episode week aha.. yeah def shouldnt sleep with that guy (take your meds kids!!) (im bipolar, have ptsd, and bpd if yall didnt know 🥲, it sucks but my meds reallyyyy help, but uh not if i take them. Been a rough couple weeks so yuh)
Just realized im having a manic episode week aha.. yeah def shouldnt sleep with that guy (take your meds kids!!) (im bipolar, have ptsd, and bpd if yall didnt know 🥲, it sucks but my meds reallyyyy help, but uh not if i take them. Been a rough couple weeks so yuh)
And I knew. I knew he didnt love me anymore. But I kept saying it hoping he’d remember what it was like. Sometimes I wanna talk to him. So badly. But i need to move on. I know that. But my heart is putting up a hell of a fight.
I was trying to find my old content and i found ss of when he sent me cute texts 🙁 and some of me saying i love you and him not saying it back. And when he hurt me. I hate that i knew when he was about to break my heart. I loved him so much