do people forget that if you've only been exposed to english media during an important developmental phase of your life it actually fucks you up badly in the future?
𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐘 𝟔𝐘𝐑𝐒 𝐀𝐍𝐍𝐈𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒𝐀𝐑𝐘!!
(Long message ahead)
My midknights, my friends, everyone, thank you SO DAMN much for supporting me for this long. Whether you're new here or not.
It's such an honor to be able to receive this much from people even though I always think I don't deserve it.
Thank you so much as well for watching my first ever karaoke relay, Crown&Chorus. I hope you guys enjoyed!! I hope one day I can do something much more bigger and even better!!!
The past few days on this anniv countdown week has been insane leading up to today which was even more crazier. I could only say thank you 10 bajillion times more and cry all of the liquid out of my body reading all of the love letters you guys have given me. All of the cheers during the Karaoke relay, all of the people who participated in the community events and the people who went on a call with me a spared a few minutes of their busy lives just to greet me.
I wouldn't keep existing if it weren't for you all.
Thank you with all of my heart. I am not and will NEVER be the most perfect person. No matter how hard I try, I will keep making mistakes but I will always learn and keep on bettering no matter what even if it's hard. I will not let my mistakes define me and be too hard on me as I will continue to grow. As long as you guys are there.
I am blessed to be surrounded by such an amazing, understanding, generous and kind community.
Due to some IRL/personal stuff, I have been in a very dark place for a while now. It felt like as if I have lost some parts of me. I 've been crying nonstop, thoughts have been eating me away. I have never felt this lonely since a very long time. For a long while, it felt like I was against the world.
The past few days has been fighting away that darkness. Midknights, you are my shining light. You guys say I have helped you on your darkest moments, well just know that you guys helped me too.
I will keep on focusing on those who still genuinely care rather than anything else.
Whether you're a chatter, lurker, monetary supporter, etc. You are all valuable to me. I am privileged to be here and I will never take it for granted.
Thank you so so so much for all these years. My precious people. I may not be able to promise a specific amount of time but I'll keep on going for as long as I can.
I AM LOVED!!!
Let's keep the celebration going until the end of the month!!
ARIGATOU MINNA, OTSU AND REMEMBER TO STAY MAD 💖🥺
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