Good excuse to finally talk about things. Where I started and where I am now.
> Be me with no clue what I want to do having finished school and always struggled
> Forced into Uni by parents and do double degree in Marketing/Psychology
> Struggle through it, working twice as hard to achieve the bare minimum but manage to graduate
> Work in Marketing for 5 years with no motivation and just aimlessly doing my routine
> Discover Vtubers, become a mod in the Hololive Fan discord
> Hear about first HoloEN auditions in 2020. Make application with zero experience
> Make it through 3 interviews with CoverCorp and get accepted into Wave 1 of HoloStarsEN
> Unfortunate corporate bureaucracy cancels first Wave of HoloStarsEN, I’m put on hold but told I’m guaranteed a spot when they finally launch
> Motivated by making it so far I start as an indie to get experience before joining HoloStarsEN
> Become Goonyella, throw myself into a new and scary world of Vtubing. I never even had a Facebook before let alone a Twitter
> Work Fulltime in Marketing while Streaming 5 days a week
> Meet lots of cool people and make lots of friends
> Meet lots of crazy people and lost lots of friends
> Somehow make Twitch partner with support from my friends and community
> Best day of my life
> 2022 HoloStarEN Wave 1 Auditions open up finally. Go through 3 interview again as a formality with CoverCorp.
> Talk about my new venture in Vtubing, how I want to bring Twitch and Youtube audience together and remove the stigma and baseless red vs purple mind set of Holofans.
> They did not like that.jpg
> Told I will no longer be part of HoloStarsEN Wave 1
> Dreams crushed but I am still privillaged enough to have a full time job and security
> Keep streaming 5 days a week, working full time
> Make some good choices and steady growth
> Make some bad choice and many mistakes
> Lose my job
> Realise how much of my life I have put on hold, how much I have neglected my friends and families, missed weddings and baby showers to stream
> Fall into deep depression for a year and sporadically stream
> Take indefinite hiatus from streaming
> Try to learn from my mistakes but not getting better
> Finally pursue professional help
> Get diagnosed with Autisim and ADHD at 31 years old
> Get medicated for ADHD
> Omg why is everything suddenly so much easier and I am motivated to actually help myself now?!
> Trying to come to terms with my diagnosis and not feel like I have wasted my life
> Work on myself and do lots of reading and research
> Find new job, indefinite hiatus from streaming to focus on it
> Excel at new job, keep battling imposter syndrome
> Go into first year performance review expecting to be told I need to do better
> Get told they think I am extremely capable and promote me to Senior Marketing Manager
> Still think I am lucking out, failing upwards and they just don’t notice
> Have a cancer scare that luckily turns out to just require some surgery (Crohn’s Disease)
> Realise life is too short.
> I don't hate my job but I don't like it
> I know what I want to do now
> Going back to Uni next year and pursuing a Masters of Clinical Psychology
> I want to help people like I was
As someone that’s climbed through most of the ranks to high Phantom and often get put in Ascendant games as well, here’s my honest breakdown.
- Below Emissary: Very new players and those unfamiliar with either MOBA macro or FPS micro.
- Emissary: Players that don’t communicate and don’t understand item builds and slam L-R or Dynamos rushing Refresher and Rems taking your own sinner. Selfish players.
- Archon: Players that are trying to improve, maybe one person communicating, sometimes trying to counter buy. More conscious of box and buff timers.
- Oracle/Phantom: Very similar imo. Almost all players communicating and making call suggestions to get team on same page. More familiar with builds and buy based on their own and enemy team. Understand when and how to leave lane and gank to maximise souls instead of afking lane for 10 minutes. Make sure to match lane opponents and get sinners at 8 minutes.
- Ascendant: Players that are just much more familiar with the above, better game sense, know when to leave a fight and focus on economy over kills. Everyone has multiple activatable items.
- Eternus: Nerds.
@deadlock_8 This specifically says it has nothing to do with player performance… report the facts please.
This is due to games where one team has 2 support and you have 0 or when one team has 1 gun carry and the other team 4.
Forcing people to play games to rank up instead of placing them are terrible. I introduced a friend to Marvel Rivals, they play CS professionally in Japan. They are forced to start in bronze, played Hela and Winter Soldier, absolutely destroying everyone every game. They are forced to ruin other people’s experience for many games to get to the rank they should be.
A good system would simply place them at their skill rank after a few games instead of some asinine forced “progression”. It also makes smurfing extremely difficult. It’s the best system for a healthy competitive environment for everyone.
Sorry, correct me if I’m mistaken but isn’t that what a good match making system should be? The number of games you play shouldn’t impact your rank, only your skill.
If I’m Faker and I play my first 3 games of Deadlock then I should be in a pretty high rank. If I play 100 games and play like an Emissary in all of them then that’s where I belong.
People have been spoiled by terrible systems like Marvel Rivals so they know feel entitled to always be increasing rank for their ego.
The problem is that this is an alpha that lacks a proper placement/ranked system. People should have to play 10 Unranked games and then be able to play Ranked after placing. They should be placed as close to their skill as possible and only expect to drop or climb a few more.
Millions of people around the world mutilate themselves in the name of religion. Nailing themselves to crosses, whipping themselves, cutting pieces off, starving etc yet when 1% seeks gender affirming care that’s where you draw the line?
If someone wants to break their legs for height surgery, inject botox, get a hair transplant, eat unhealthily, or get a pair of tits, that is their prerogative and you have no say in it just like you have no say in what I’m going to eat for lunch today.
Work on yourself... it takes a lot of work and convincing but it's possible to stop if you align yourself with who you want to be and goals. You start liking yourself when you stop trying to live through someone else's lense.