you're praying TAHAJJUD, it's out of love for Allah. He broke you so you would find your way to TAHAJJUD. There must be something that brought you to TAHAJJUD, and from there began the eternal love story between you and Allah!✨
Abu Hurairah (RA) reported the Prophet (May peace be upon him) as saying:
The worst of the people is a man who is double-faced; he presents one face to some and another to others.
(Sunan Abi Dawud 4872, Book 43, Hadith 100)
Narrated 'Abdullah bin 'Amr (RA):
The Prophet (ﷺ) said, "A Muslim is the one who avoids harming Muslims with his tongue and hands. And a Muhajir (emigrant) is the one who gives up (abandons) all what Allah has forbidden."
(Bukhari)