Transparently Me

♪A simple sign of GRACE is this, from the broken earth a flower comes up pushing through the dirt...♪
I'm a spoonie, fighting many battles physical & mental! †

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Two hours at the gym was NOT a good idea. It's been 2 days and my body has still not recovered!!!
#stupidchronicillness #chronicfatigue

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Being around a family that's REAL is a really AWESOME feeling. I can just be ME, no expectations. Wish I could stay here forever...

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Why is it being somewhere I feel physically & mentally SAFE makes me feel like it's ok to EAT?
#EDprobs #EDrecovery

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I saw on Dr. Oz that fasting (aka starvation!) does NOT actually slow down metabolism.
This could be bad for me (ED) to know.
#EDprobs

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God PROVIDES!!!! †
#thankful

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Moderation moderation moderation.
No more pizza today.
WHY is pizza my weakness?! :-(
#EDprobs #moderation

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Words I have to repeat to myself on a regular basis: Moderation & Stability.
Striving for those helps me stay sane!!
#moderation #stability

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CAN'T sleep. Feels like I've been tossing & turning for HOURS. Then I look at the clock.. It's been 30 mins. :-|
#painsomniasucks #insomnia

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"You can eat when you're skinny."
I mean what kind of thought IS that?!
I hate eating disorders.
#hateED #EDruinslife

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When you're restricting, even if it's "just a little", eventually you start noticing food EVERYWHERE.
That's called hungry. :(
#EDprobs

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When you want to go to sleep but NERVE PAIN is keeping you awake...
#painsomnia #beestingpain #ugh

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That awkward moment when your panties turn to thongs while running on the treadmill at the gym... LOL
#awkward #embarrasingmoments

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And the thing that sucks the most, is I'll never ever know if that's true or not...
#lifeSUCKS #stupidexboss

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I know it's paranoid to think my ex-boss has anything to do with it, but I feel like she's preventing anyone else from hiring me..
#shesevil

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Had a telephone job interview today at 1:30pm. No one ever called. I called them, and got no answer.
WHY does this keep happening?!
#screwed

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Why explain yourself when people don't even freakin reply anyway?
#screwit #screwthem #hurt #angry

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It's like God isn't even listening.
#alone

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Freakin fuck life. Damnit.
#sodone

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So far so good. Have not eaten a cookie. Watching Ice Age 2 with my little cousin. Just brushed my teeth.
I can do this. I can.
#fightingED

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Well there's cookies here. Of course. But I'm not eating one. I've already eaten my sweet today. A brownie. No more.
#fightingED