@stapecape Nothing I can say that hasn’t already been said. You deserve better than you got, my friend! Happy to have been a mod for you and happier to see you come out the other side breathing despite everything.
Non scale based fitness victory: went to a waterpark with friends and was able to keep my shirt off for almost 30 minutes before the fear and negative self image took back over!
Am I exercising to stave off the emotional collapse and spiral into a depressive episode? Yea. Do I feel better about my body than I ever have in my entire life? Also yea.