i’m just so excited cause this place holds so much toxicity in my life and slowly letting it go and growing past it means a lot fr. it’s like i’m really growing into who i am healthily
@bunmatz that’s okay. they irritate me but it’s not something major like i’m not gonna d!e bc of a priv qrts lol. thank you for understanding though, i really appreciate it
yes, but i tweeted that because atinys ruin ateez for me even though i don’t hate them. i would look at him and think about how yall suck 😭 yes kpop is just music, however my personal attachment to said genre and the group is much deeper than that
Aren't you the one who tweeted smth about how you couldn't even look at hj the same? 😭 it's great if it's something you don't need to /rely/ on, I'm truly happy for you for that, but it's still music, you can still enjoy music imo after not relying on it
@MATZSANG@bunmatz that’s really what i’ve realized. a lot of fandom shit i see on here doesn’t matter to me or doesn’t align with how i want to live my life. i don’t want to get offended over small things or blow up minuscule things. this stuff isn’t serious and it shouldn’t be treated as such 😭
this is really it. i don’t need to cling to a depressing attachment anymore. i want to move on from that life and i feel like im mentally stable enough to do so 😭😭😭😭
it sounds corny but ateez helped me stay on this earth when i was having conversations with death himself. i’m no longer mentally ill to the point where i need to figuratively be held down by them and stan twt anymore. i’ve grown up and recovered !!
@bunmatz i can live with kpop but not with the current attachment i have with it. i would really have to start fresh all over again and rework everything in the same way ive done with everything else in my life.
@bunmatz cause i do have negative feelings but it’s mainly due to the fandom. this has been a 4 year long process of me outgrowing a life and mindset i lived while depressed. i feel like im finally starting to LIVE like I HAVE A FUTURE ! this is the main thing i have left behind
@MATZSANG@bunmatz i experienced this too. the more i go outside the more i realize i don’t want to be like a lot of the people on here. i know what i want and who i want to be in life, and i don’t want to be surrounded by the opposite of that even if it’s just online
@bunmatz@MATZSANG it’s been a years-long process. i have such an unhealthy connection to stan twt and kpop in general that the farther away from it i get the more irl improves…it is that bad
this is partially how it is for me. i got into stan twt when i was severely depressed. i lost interest in everything and solely relied on fandom culture and whatnot. it kept me alive but it didn’t improve my mental health and life outside the way i wanted to
I thought when ppl said this most of the time they meant they’ve outgrown the parasocialism and fandom culture. That they don’t feel the need to engage with things outside of the music.
@bunmatz well i have thoughts on that too but that entire instance is what made me realize im finally detaching from something that’s personally unhealthy 😭 i don’t hate ateez. i’m very grateful for them even when i’ll fully move on from them