We all know how hard it is to not talk about all the things that hurt you, to cry silent tears every night to sleep, to have no one to help you go through the day, to carry yourself with a blank mind & sinking heart, i pray it all eases out for you soon.
Read the signs when the Almighty’s telling you to move on. Don’t put a question mark where He has put a full stop. It’s not in our capacity to fully understand all that’s going on; but know that He will heal the pain and mend the heart.
All relations are like a see-saw: they stay well until both sides balance off. The moment the balance fails, one side gets overburdened - maybe not apparently, but inside: it’s a mess.