My career's coming together. My purpose is becoming clearer & clearer. My circle's beautiful. My life is thriving. I am so grateful to be present & to be healthy. I am so grateful to have people rooting for me as I chase my dreams. Life is amazing. I am choosing positivity.
One time, after a dinner date, my bf forced me to go to Target, saying he needed something, and we were way too dressed up. We left with 2 candles, we didn't need. He just wanted people to see us all dressed up a little longer and show me off, and that's where the bar is ladies
I met a 78 year old man who recently started sleeping at a park I take supplies to.
He broke his back working construction. When he got out of the hospital, he had been evicted.
A lifetime of his belongings had been thrown away by his landlord.
Homelessness is that easy.
The first conversation I had with my oncologist, we were just talking about his experiences as a doctor (which...awesome, it was very good to get know him a bit) and I ended up asking if people ever decide to not follow his advice.
He said yes, and he looked very sad and then he told me that every single one of conversations are going to be with him forever.
What a very hard thing that must be...to have someone turn down your advice...to not get chemo, or exit the treatment early, only to come back and find that now the prognosis is much worse and the treatment plan much less clear.
It seemed to me that, at least in part, he felt his inability to keep them on the treatment path was a personal failure. I wish I could take that guilt away from him, because it's not his fault. We're all susceptible to simple stories that give us back a sense of control, even if it's an illusion. And sometimes people cannot be convinced...and sometimes that's deadly.
I'm very grateful that my worldview meshes well with the most effective paradigms. I didn't get that because I'm smart, I got it by the luck of my upbringing. And if ever a doctor tells you that you need chemo...there will almost certainly be people in your life who tell you that you should try alternatives instead.
You. Should. Not.
You can and should do acupuncture and restorative yoga and aromatherapy and eat less sugar and whatever other things help you. But do those things AND get the treatment recommended by your oncologist. Cancer patients have control, it's just a different kind of control than we're used to, and it can be disruptive to an identity to submit to that lack of control. But that's just...having a body, and I'm very happy that I get to have a body.
This may sound harsh, but as a woman you cannot surround yourself with a bunch of miserable women and thrive. I know everyone has their moments and goes through things but some are just internally miserable and will never be able to lift you or genuinely be happy for you.