@one_hardTruth Wow, guess this post was for me, 43 here. I feel old as dirt and #4 really hits on your list. I've hated how my life turned out, went downhill fast in late 30s. Divorce from only person ever really dated (started in high school), financially destroyed by ex and just disgusted.
It's no secret to the few who know me, but I struggle with severe depression. Sometimes the best way to fight the blues is to just show up even when you don't feel able๐