Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor

Severe iatrogenic harm survivor (Fluoroquinolones & Psych polypharmacy). Battling Akathisia & PAWS. Former banker & IT pro, now housebound. Fighting to survive.

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

Despite textbook symptoms of iatrogenic injury, NO doctor validated my suffering. They called it a "relapse," dismissed the severe adverse drug reactions, and abandoned me. I was left completely alone to manage paradoxical toxicity.
#MedicalGaslighting #PrescribedHarm

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

Some meds of the the last 4 years: Diazepam, Clonazepam, Lorazepam, Mirtazapine, Gabapentin, Zoloft, Prozac, Lyrica, Quetiapine, Trazodone, Doxepine, Buspirone, Buproprione, Cymbalta, Citalopram, Coaxil, Tiapridal, Aripriprazole, Ropinirol, Clozapine, Phenorbarbital, Anafranil...

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

19. 09.2021 came and everything came back. I was in shock, I didn't know why. One day the fear and agitation came back and never left. I didn't want meds, I started to fight desperately to no lose again everything. But the more I fought, the worst It got, I was in quick sands.

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

19. 09.2021 came and everything came back. I was in shock, I didn't know why. One day the fear and agitation came back and never left. I didn't want meds, I started to fight desperately to no lose again everything. But the more I fought, the worst It got, I was in quick sands.

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

18. I had bad waves, but I lived through, I worked, I traveled, I met friends, I was rebuilding. Nothing was easy but I was looking forward. I thought that the nightmare is in the past now, and slowly I will get everything back. I could feel joy again and make new memories...

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

18. I had bad waves, but I lived through, I worked, I traveled, I met friends, I was rebuilding. Nothing was easy but I was looking forward. I thought that the nightmare is in the past now, and slowly I will get everything back. I could feel joy again and make new memories...

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

17. In 2018, with the help of a friend, I pushed myself to reintegrate society. It was extremely hard. I moved alone (although I almost didn't make it, he had to not leave me me alone 24/7 for 1st mo.).I got a part time job and started from there. I had to relearn everything...

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

@Gmwetz I'm sorry , I wish you good heath to come. I understand you very well. There's no celebrations, there's no Christmas, New Year's in this.. and the phone never rings anymore.

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

17. In 2018, with the help of a friend, I pushed myself to reintegrate society. It was extremely hard. I moved alone (although I almost didn't make it, he had to not leave me me alone 24/7 for 1st mo.).I got a part time job and started from there. I had to relearn everything...

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

16. 5 years off I was recovered 60% on best days. Symptoms that didn't go away: 24/7 tension headache, severe memory, cognition and focus problems, extreme fatigue, waves of anxiety or akathisia, no motivation, GI problems, intolerance to meds and supps and to cold etc...

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

@Asteroidplease1 Yes, anafranil, lyrica, diazepam and phenobarbital. I take four..

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

I'm afraid for my life, I'm afraid I'll never be able to get off this drug. In the past I CT full doses of antidepressant and I didn't feel this kind of agitation on top of insane anxiety. Water taper doesn't help.
I'm really really scared.

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

Mornings are just despair. Exreme agitation, chest explosion, internal tension and speed, intolerance to any stimuli, especially sounds..Unbearable..I take the meds quickly and i wait for them to kick in. I'm an an abismal dose of 0.14mg Anafranil and I feel it like full dose.

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

@Asteroidplease1 No, but I had it mild-moderate on my previous withdrawal from diazepam, especially on legs and tights. It was on and off. A buddy from then had it badly, he was telling me he feels like his head is in an oven. I lost contact with him, but I think he got better.

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

Mornings are just despair. Exreme agitation, chest explosion, internal tension and speed, intolerance to any stimuli, especially sounds..Unbearable..I take the meds quickly and i wait for them to kick in. I'm an an abismal dose of 0.14mg Anafranil and I feel it like full dose.

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

@Limessa_67 Wish I would knew. So many years of reading, trying , experience and I still know nothing.

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

@Limessa_67 Not really similar tbh. I wake up like in full CT withdrawal and then i take the tiny dose and it gives me a little relief for the first 4-6h then it goes bad again as the metabolite is very adrenergic.

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

@nomacxyz 13 years ago I CT 225mg venlafaxine. Horrible drug. I;m sorry for your pain.

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

@benzosarebad It never made me sleep, but the agitation cause by it..Oh, God!

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

@Limessa_67 ❤️ It's not normal.

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

@somnium_amoris Not all at once.

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

Medications given for my first episode: Valdoxan, Coaxil, Pramistar, Lorazepam, Xanax, Venlafaxine, Amisulpride, Escitalopram, Gabapentin, Clonazepam (all went off CT because the doctor just told me I can stop them) and last Diazepam.

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

@c3vvno @Asteroidplease1 There's nothing on this world that comes close to akathisia.

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

I would really need some prayers these days. God bless all those who suffer, there's nothing like this torture...

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

@Asteroidplease1 If you get better things might change and you can tolerate again your meds. Maybe try much lower doses at first.

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

What’s the hardest part of psych med withdrawal for you? For me it’s the constant inner torment that never stops. No one around me understands. #PsychMedWithdrawal #Akathisia #BIND

[Alex | Prescribed Harm Survivor @HealingAlex_EU]

@Asteroidplease1 I'm very sorry. I want to tell you that I once recovered enough to live again. We can't change much, but we can hold each other's hand until the sky starts to clear up.