@kossisoroyce@veekthoven I posted about having a pastor. But you are already talking about the church.
It shows where your heart is.
PS: May healing find you, and may you find your way back to the church.
There's a reason why you are "far away from the church."
I will tell you this, it is not God.
When you don't know what to do, pray!
Seriously, don't allow yourself to be buried in anxiety, worries and all the things that won't solve the problem.
Secure your peace of mind first.
Do have a great day!
May the Lord bless you and protect you.
May the Lord smile on you and be gracious to you.
May the Lord show you his favor and give you his peace.
Numbers 6:24-26