Every day you wake up is a sign of God's mercy and forgiveness for all your sins. Don't beat yourself up over what you've done wrong. Just repent and do your best to live a Christian life
“Do you realize that those very things that are considered hurtful and which are causes of unhappiness by human standards may be transmuted into advantages within the Grace of God?
I am totally convinced that human beings who have been traumatized in their lives either physically or psychologically have tremendous potential to become truly great. This is also why the holy elders have placed so much emphasis on how to contront temptations. They didn't mean by that the pseudo-temptations related to the pleasures of the senses. They meant the temptations that accompany the difficult and seemingly hopeless circumstances that people find themselves in. They meant the temptations that torment human beings and which often lead to serious psychological traumas.
When we find ourselves in such circumstances but approach God in the right way, allowing Grace to get energized within ourselves, then something paradoxical takes place. God, as the doctor of our body and soul, not only heals our traumas so that no trace of the trauma remains, but does something much more important. He transforms the old hurts into spiritual assets. The healed person has now become knowledgeable of the inner world of human beings and can therefore become a healer to others.”
"That's why," Father Maximos continued, "God quite often permitted and even propelled saints to succumb under pressure to various temptations, great temptations, that caused them deep sorrow and psychic turmoil."
"Why?"
"Because a human being who has not been tempted, who has not experienced pain or shed bitter tears, is not able to understand others in their pain and sorrow."
"As a Cypriot proverb goes," I added, "if you have a full stomach it is not likely that you will think of those who are hungry."
"That's how it is," Father Maximos agreed. "A person who has not been tempted is like bread that has not been baked. All of life's temptations unfold within the Providence of God."
"Are you by any chance suggesting, Father Maxime, that God cooperates with evil?"
"No. God never cooperates with evil. He simply offers us the opportunity to transform the painful experiences in our lives into advantages and blessings. I'll never forget the words of elder Paisios, who used to tell us that the time will come when we will be grateful to God for all the hurts and pains that we underwent in our lives. Each one of us carries his or her own cross. If we persevere and face our trials in a spiritual way, we will realize at a certain point that these traumas and trials have been transmuted within us into great advantages, into real treasures. You see, the saints knew about this mystery. That's why they would often intentionally not avoid trials and sorrows but rather allow them to get energized."
- The Mountain of Silence: A Search for Orthodox Spirituality (pg 179).
And when he comes home, he calls together his friends and neighbors, saying to them, ‘Rejoice with me, for I have found my sheep that was lost.’
St Luke 15:6
The beautiful thing about life is that it does get better, and God often likes to surprise you. The timeline's largely hidden – one day after the next til suddenly you're experiencing joys you never imagined, and all the sorrows in between are redeemed