I deleted twitter on my phone cuz it was giving me tweets about Hip Hop Dramma... Like I dont care what Justin Bieber is doing. Ima just use it on my pc to promote stickly tbh.
I’m 24 and just want genuine connections and conversations. I don’t wanna be used like I’m 17 still. I’m a full grown ass adult. Treat me like it. And start to treat yourself like it too. I need people to pull there weight. I don’t need people to worry about themselves 24/7.
I feel really disrespected recently. I’m hella nice but don’t assume anything over me. Don’t assume anything. Use your words and ask. Do not come into my life trying to use me for anything. Any time I’ve ever tried showing someone this vision they end up using me for there gain.
I just don’t know anymore. About anything. I’m a very lost soul. Looking for whatever can create happiness in this void of nothingness. I’m struggling so fucking hard to even feel myself. I don’t wanna let anyone down. But this war is feels like it’s just starting… fuck.
I woke up this morning and thought my tik tok notifications was my SoundCloud. 200 plus notifications and 95 dms. I freaked out till I realized it wasn’t that
I just want to be gentle with myself. I’m my own bully. I beat myself more than anyone out there can possibly. I’m learning. Opening up. Releasing emotions I’ve had locked up for a long time. Letting go of some things that kept me safe or kept me feeling safe…
Whatever I’m going through. Whatever is going on in my fucking head. I pray it goes away. I pray I can figure out what the fuck is raging inside my mind. I really want to grow. And just be the me I want to be. But idk. A battle I’m loosing in a sense.
If another person tells me to be careful about jumping into a relationship… like I’ve been single with zero girl interaction for 3 years straight. I think I deserve it and if you don’t think so, you clearly don’t want to see me happy.
I find it funny when I state I think ima be alone forever, been struggling recently with that… and the universe sends someone right my way. Of course ima take it beyond slow. I’m scared of everything. But something seems different about this one. I don’t know mannn…
Chasing your dreams isn’t fun. It’s legit this constant fear of failing. It’s sad. It feels insane half the time. It feels fucked. So no it’s not fun. Its Discipline