No one talks about how draining it is when your mood is constantly switching between 'its okay, I don't care, I'll be okay' and 'I don't know how much more I can take'
ppl r disingenuous and say “narcissism and antisocial etc are different from the PDs” like lol. even psychologists don’t follow this proposed reality.
anyway, narcissism = self orientation (time and energy focus) in response to trauma. abuse = selfish (action and value driven)
the thing i adore about depression is that if you’re alive nobody really thinks it’s that bad and when you’re like oh it’s really that bad this time people are like “you say that every time” and/or “you’re so strong and resilient so you can get over it again”
like! i'm tired of being strong and resilient! i'm exhausted! i want to be nourished and nurtured and babied and held! i want someone to really truly take care of me! i want to be able to collapse!