man that hurt. genuinely i cant stop thinking about it.
tomorrow with the food delivery shop i’m gonna get my sandwich, spit on it, then throw it into the toilet. then gonna do the same with dinner.
honestly i hate food it’s disgusting. and i hate my body more.
25th march
no no no no no no no. i hate everything about today. i had chinese fast food and i don’t like fast food. 🤮 was around 1300.
also dad said that “you just love food, don’t you. the first thing you do when you get back is eat” that COULDNT BE MORE WRONG LOL
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22nd march
bad day, had 3000 calories which is too much and i realised that not many people go above 2500 cals (did a poll on reddit). i’m gonna stay to 500 and 600.
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i think i ate too much because
1) i thought i was fat in the mirror
2) i had to eat the rest of the icing
3) i was looking at food on social media
4) i had the urges to eat and felt like i wanted lots of food
5) i ALSO thought i looked thin and that my weight was okay
19th march
good day for calories! i didn’t have any sugary food as well. i did a 800 calorie workout which was great. mum got a weekly shop and bought some things i wanted, i think mum wants me to get skinny and lose weight.
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from now on
- going to drink water whenever i’m hungry
- not even care about sweet food
- only have 1 banana and dispose of dinner
- not binge cause ew that’s gross??
- look at sweetspo
- i believe in myself
- gotta stay consistent
- i want to be 8,10 so badly
need to follow this:
10 days - 1kg
march 17 - 58
march 27 - 57
april 6 - 56
april 26 - 55
may 6 - 54
may 16 - 53
may 26 - 52
june 5 - 51
june 15 - 50
june 25 - 49
cause it’s embarrassing and i’d rather not eat cause eating is really uncomfortable anyway and it’s just gross to me. idc. i’m so determined to lose weight now. but i think i binged cause i was
1) tired
2) mum gave me a sandwich
3) i craved sugar
that’s all but yay weight loss
17th march
okok so up and down day. i binged. but also i’m kind of sick of eating anyway so that’s going to be my last one ever i think. i don’t even like food. and binging isn’t as valid so i’m gonna stop cause it’s…
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i went down 1kg though in 10 days!
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14th march
1200 goal - 862 food + 250 exercise = 588 remaining
this was a good day! i stayed under 1000 calories and i plan to stay below 600 this week ✅