I want to be upfront about whatโs been going on.
Iโve been told that people have been discouraging others from associating with me, telling people not to talk to me, and that the timing of me speaking up about my experiences was wrong, among various other criticisms. Combined with everything else that has been happening, all of this has left me feeling overwhelmed, isolated, and exhausted. I was also accused of lying despite evidence to the contrary.
I care deeply about this community but I need time to figure things out before I do or say anything else. I want to make it clear that I will not be backing down from what I have shared. However, I am not asking anyone to choose sides, nor will I personally reciprocate what is being done to me. I will not blacklist, shame, or call out anyone who chooses to remain acquainted with others involved, nor will I judge anyone for holding a different opinion from my own. The document will remain existent regardless despite everything and will be linked here, my information and vod will remain in the drive as well.
To be completely honest, my mental health is in a terrible place. I feel like a failure, I feel unable to get anything done, and earlier today I reached a breaking point. I was in a very dark place mentally and came dangerously close to making a permanent decision.
To everyone who took the time to reach out, check in on me, talk with me, support me, encourage me to keep creating, or offer reassurance..thank you. Whether I replied or not, please know that I read every message. Your kindness, support, and words of encouragement have meant more than I can adequately express, and they may very well have helped prevent a decision I could never take back, both online and beyond it.
I want to make it clear that I am not quitting. However, for the foreseeable future, I will be sticking to select spaces and collaboration partners while I take the time I need to recover, reflect, and determine my next steps. I still intend to pursue my goals and continue creating content, but right now I need to focus on myself. I will be doing that with the support of my closest friends, my moderators, my community, my amazing manager @Hot_Shack, and @meltiheart , who has had my back every step of the way.
Thank you.
I feel like most corpos are locking themselves in wards because of personal information, business information, and anything that might be used against it.
Anything else, imo should be public, not because there's no need for privacy, but locking it down doesn't make sense. BUT another reason why people sign contracts is to avoid having to deal with edge cases where people go out of their way to bring ruin to the company's name/online presence with malice
Is there any Agency that's good these days anymore?
As much as I was involved in this drama, I wanna give a few words. (proceeds to write a 200 word essay)
I joined Renderยฒ because I wanted to learn to edit better and improve my skill which thanks to a lot of people in it, I did. I learned enough to be able to edit for people I highly regard so much I still can't believe I was taken in.
Opportunities come and go, I get it. But when it comes to asking people to reach out, then telling them you're in, and then taking it back like that... You can't just Nu Uh some things after they happen or are said.
I will say I'm glad I'm not working for such people, and I pray every single day to never have to.
With that said, any mentions of this in any way, shape or form that I feel is threatening to my peace will either be met with a ban/block or a very disappointing sigh...
Hope everyone affected negatively gets compensated.
Also the screenshot you've shown just shows you have negative reading comprehension. Sol is talking about a SHE and a HER, not even a HE or a HIM. I would have been lenient if Sol used They/Them but you're just slandering me for free to look less like an ass. Keep my name out of your mouth and go read a book.
@sunntrix Quick question. What form?
You posted this in the Render Server, ALL the dms I have with you are clear as day. If you heard anything, it is hearsay and not asking me personally is your problem.
@FlorkOfCows Laziness and convenience drive people to make hasty decisions especially when it seems like a good offer
Glad to see there's still good in the community
Thanks Flork
@CynoSquare I spoke w Cam back when they made that server to help people with YouTube, i messaged em to help the server since i have extended knowledge on how things work, mf left me hanging like a dry turkey...
They did feel off but eh i was doing it for the people of that server not em