I sit quietly and realize that God has been taking care of me this whole time. Maybe not in luxurious ways. Maybe not an easy life. But through protection,provision, good health, surviving hard days and always having just enough to keep going.
and if love ever finds me again, i hope it's with someone who thinks about how their actions affect me,someone who considers my feelings before making choices and values my peace as much as their own because I'm not here to survive love again, I'm here to finally live it
I wanna be kissed, rubbed, grabbed and hugged all day. Iโm so affectionate. I like compliments and forehead kisses. Open my door for me. Ask me if Iโm okay, do I wanna ride with you, take random pictures and videos cause you want memories of me in your phone. Like LOVE ME!!!
The quickest way to lose me is to make me feel like I donโt matter. I donโt expect perfection from anybody, but I do pay attention to effort, consistency, and how people treat me over time. Once I start noticing that Iโm always the one reaching out, always the one understanding, or always the one showing up, I take a step back. I donโt beg people to value me and I donโt compete for a place in anybodyโs life. If somebody shows me where I stand, I believe it. And once I accept that, I move accordingly. Some things donโt need an argument, they just need distance.
i need someone in my life that misses me throughout the day, wants to talk to me, wants to hear how my day is going, wants to video chat when we both are free just to see each other.