I had no one to crash out about it this morning for said reasons. No one to talk. Got shrug off and neglected already a bit earlier. Didn't came up with anything better than humiliate oneself in public on internet so here you go. Yay
Find it progressively harder to force myself to get out of the bed every morning. Everything that waits me after I open my eyes is problems and murky future which I have all self-confidence to handle with...
And for those who care I'm time and time again putting up that mask of strength and confidence of a man who laughs in the face of any darkness, who stands tall in the storm so I could be a beacon for those I love. So I could show them that everything is not as grim as it seems.