Hey everyone, it’s been a while. I just wanted to share some thoughts about this year and what’s next for me.
This year, I did get one win but honestly, it felt more like luck. After that, things went downhill for both the team and for me. I lost a lot of confidence, and when that happened, my play just kept getting worse. It’s been a really rough year, one I never want to go through again.
I kept asking myself over and over… should I keep playing? Try coaching? Or even do something completely different? I thought about it a lot. But deep down, it just doesn’t feel right to step away like this. I still believe I can play well, and I want to prove that. I’m not ready to give up yet.
That said, I know I need some time. I want to take care of my mental health and my body, and really think about what I want to do next year. If I do retire one day, I want to do it with a smile not with regret.
I don’t know what next year will look like. Maybe I’ll still be a player, maybe a coach, maybe something else. But whatever it is, I’ll give it everything I have and show the best version of me.
I’m sorry if I let you down this year. But I won’t give up. When the night is darkest, that’s when the light shines the brightest. Next year, I want to be that light.
Thank you for supporting me! not just as a player, but as Impact the person. Whatever I end up doing, I want to make you proud. See you all next year🙂
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There were so many things going on yesterday. It was a sad day. I could play better and I could have helped the team more. I'm sorry to the fans. Yesterday, I didn't get any questions in advance and suddenly asked to me, so I had a lot of thoughts. I thought this was my first day of recognition in my 12year career as a professional gamer. I was imagining teams that have gone through a professional career(Xenice Storm SKT T1 TIP NRG C9 TL EG FLYQ and now TL). I really wanted people to know how I played, how I laughed, how I played, how I played hard and wanted to be recognized as someone who worked hard and was good. I was so happy to think about how I did in my career and almost crying, I saw it during the interview, and I held it in as much as I could because I thought it would affect the game, and it was so hard to say what I should say. I wanted to talk about my 12year professional career and how I feel, and I want to continue for forever until I cant play, not 12. But I think I could't speaking well because of my lack of English and It was emotional, I'm so sorry about that. Emily asked me about my individual performance, It started as a small thing, but I think it's huge. I usually enjoy taking naps. I rarely slept in my professional life and thought I shouldn't take naps, So I started going to the gym instead of taking naps, I thought I would work out for an hour and go
At first, I was so annoyed that I thought, "Why am I supposed to do this?" And then I kept thinking, "If I can't get over this, how can I continue to be a professional?" Then, I'm becoming more and more interested in exercise, and these days, I want to exercise. I've gained confidence and confidence that I can change these little habits. I've gained confidence that I can control myself and continue to do well. It's really simple, but I think it's a big reason for me.I think I had this experience because I was able to become a professional gamer. Thank you so much. It's all thanks to you, Someone will say, "An hour's exercise is nothing. You may be right, but I can say, I'm very confident that it's a big change, because it turns bad habits into good ones, I wish I had said this in an interview, but it's a shame."
The reason I wanted to say this is that you can do it too. If you do your best in every little thing, you will be able to do even bigger things, Thank you so much. It's all thanks to you that I can continue to be a professional and have passion. And I think we can do better and we have a lot to show. See you in world championship
I knew I will get it, but it's my first time getting it in my 12year career. So I'm really happy I think receiving this MVP is very big in my life for getting more passion and I think that's one of the driving factors behind continuing to play games. It's all thanks to you guys