Maybe you don’t need to “fix your nervous system”. Maybe it’s just responding appropriately to an environment that endangers your health, physical safety, etc.
It’s healthy to be able to handle stress with grace, but you can’t regulate your way out of chronic starvation or a lack of community or toxic work environments.
Laughing with friends, eating enough food, being appreciated at work, consistent income, having time to create—these regulate your nervous system more than any breathwork exercise.
“My friends with the progesterone babies had all kinds of stories about the precocious things they would do.
The most recent story I heard about a couple of them — one of them, I think she’s four years old — she had just started a notebook.
The grandfather told me that she had written out in her notebook some pages with her eight-year-old brother’s name, and the grandfather’s name, and had drawn three lines under her brother’s and five lines under her grandfather’s name.
And he asked what that was for, and she said,
“I want each of you to teach new things every day.”
He asked why he had five lines, and her older brother had only three lines.
She said, “Because you know more than he does.””
— Ray Peat
@ThumosRebirthed@sportdrink Yes, he experienced significant lung irritation and felt off for around a week after trying them. He didn't experience anything even remotely similar with American spirits or the cigarettes he would make.
When he voiced concerns Hestia did not answer his questions unless pushed
Applied tyromix to my ear canals after this. Experienced hearing loss after significant endotoxin load for a sustained amount of time. Hearing has returned to what it was when I was a preteen.
The relationship between deafness and hypothyroidism has been known for a century, even a simple local administration of thyroxine (much less active than t3) into the ear canal significantly improves its symptoms in 50% of patients. Harvard doesn't think any treatments exist.
I personally experience great closure and rest knowing it was his time and his heart became ready. His wishes for his body, burial, possessions, and passing were all honored. His legacy lives.
I truly believe that he died in forgiveness, was forgiven by God, and rests in peace.
I am not posting much in large part because I am building, taking care of the land, and continuing to iterate on values and the legacy.
Much of our blood family is still struggling and have not found closure with his death, but I hope his family here in the peaty community have.
I'm around often, but the things I am experimenting with now are of a more personal nature and do not translate well into posts. I believe some information can not be described, only experienced. Many things I have learned during and since his death fall into that category.
Everything we have worked on the last year has been to complete the things Raydolf was unable to finish, fight for survival of the legacy, carry forward the best, and rebuild a family and home after our loss.
We have been able to reduce costs significantly to something that seems to be very sustainable. Livestock have been purchased and are offsetting food costs greatly while taking care of the land and building our flock. We are getting in a position to produce our milk next summer.
Many of his ambitions for his home, land, his hopes for my future, and his desires for his close family, have been achieved, sustained, or are underway.
His legacy and dreams have not just been preserved, but is finding stronger footing than was possible during his lifetime.
The community here, it's gifts and support, his brother, and without a doubt God, are all that prevented the obliteration of much that Raydolf is.
Despite how close everything came, there has been great triumph on his behalf and for now, the struggle has waned.
Because I was his spouse I had legal authority after his passing and ensured his wishes were honored and his legacy would have a chance but this was not seen kindly. I have lost both sides of our family since his passing and great effort to harm me has been taken.
There were plans among all but a few of our family members to destroy every piece of his work, values, and our home from the last 6 years after his passing. Because of his ill health, Raydolf was unable to leave affairs as he would have preferred. It was very vulnerable.
Many of our family members were not on good terms with him during his life, much was left unsaid and too much had been rashly said. Both sides of our family reacted with malicious and consuming intent after his passing.
Raydolf would often describe his father with this picture.
There have been many times since his death where things were extraordinarily dark. Many situations financially, physically, and spiritually were unsettled until the last possible moment and with great peril. Many of our family members have become further violent and troubled.