𓏲 ๋ ˖ ZIG ்⋆

“ you were there for me when i wasn’t there for myself . saw some good in me , when it was still too soon to tell . . . ” @BLACKH3ARTSVAMP ⨾ 𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָ𐀔

[𓏲 ๋ ˖ ZIG ்⋆ @IRATUSZIG]

♡•. Ziggy Lee .•♡

“ if i had a choice , i’d be somebody else . . . ”

• musician
* can be moody and avoidant ( can be sweet )
• a fellow australian !
* fandomless OC
• younger version of @CANTATORZIGGY
* one of #SmolHunterAngel’s
sweeties •

[ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ ᅠᅠ 𝓷umber 𝟏 o͟bsession @curlslead]

𝒽arrison rowe ☆

[𓏲 ๋ ˖ ZIG ்⋆ @IRATUSZIG]

tired and moody, proceed with caution…

[𓏲 ๋ ˖ ZIG ்⋆ @IRATUSZIG]

+ otherwise in this moment alone, it was a strange feeling for him.

[𓏲 ๋ ˖ ZIG ்⋆ @IRATUSZIG]

“i promise, i’ll stay right beside you from now on…i’m not goin’ anywhere…” he softly replied, letting out a shaky breath.

he felt a weight lift off his shoulders almost. in his mind he didn’t think he really mattered this much to somebody. and to be proven +

[˚.⋆ 𝓛𝐄𝐍𝐍͟𝐎͟𝐗 𝓕𝐋𝐄𝐓𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐑 , @noxwoe]

he closed his eyes tightly, still battling and fighting off tears that were so desperately trying to leave his eyes.

“don’t leave me again … please.” he wasn’t sure if he could handle that again, +

[𓏲 ๋ ˖ ZIG ்⋆ @IRATUSZIG]

+ work to do, especially with himself. but this was a step forward.

[𓏲 ๋ ˖ ZIG ்⋆ @IRATUSZIG]

ziggy’s eyes widened in surprise before they closed and he wrapped his arms around lennox in return. he hid his face in his shoulder, keeping ahold of him as if he was terrified to let him go.

he fell quiet now, taking in this moment in. he knew he had a lot of +

[˚.⋆ 𝓛𝐄𝐍𝐍͟𝐎͟𝐗 𝓕𝐋𝐄𝐓𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐑 , @noxwoe]

his cold eyes went softer as he continued to look into ziggy’s, and it’s like all the weight had been lifted, or at least some of it.

he felt seen, and wanted and ziggy had always meant so damn much to him. +

[𓏲 ๋ ˖ ZIG ்⋆ @IRATUSZIG]

+ his own voice fairly hushed. he swallowed back a lump in his throat.

“i am so sorry for making you feel that way…”

he softly added.

[𓏲 ๋ ˖ ZIG ்⋆ @IRATUSZIG]

he kept his hands cupping lennox’s cheeks as he gazed into his eyes. he blinked, shaking his head a little bit, his look holding a softness to them that hadn’t been there in ages.

“please…you mean way too much to me…i’m just. /shitty/ at showing it…”

he softly said, +

[˚.⋆ 𝓛𝐄𝐍𝐍͟𝐎͟𝐗 𝓕𝐋𝐄𝐓𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐑 , @noxwoe]

it had been a long time since anybody had touched him or held him like this, his eyes glancing at ziggy. they had a flicker of hope in them, a flicker of want and need.

he moved his hands hesitantly, wrapping them +

[𓏲 ๋ ˖ ZIG ்⋆ @IRATUSZIG]

+ he carefully cupped his cheeks in his hands as he gazed into his eyes, a sadness in his own.

“i’m sorry i wasn’t there when you needed me most…i wasn’t thinking right. i was an idiot…please…”

he softly said.

[𓏲 ๋ ˖ ZIG ்⋆ @IRATUSZIG]

ziggy widened his eyes momentarily. he wiped away his tears as he cautiously stepped forward. he hesitated before gently placing a hand on his shoulder, carefully making him look at him.

“lennox, no…no no. please…don’t.”

he softly said. +

[˚.⋆ 𝓛𝐄𝐍𝐍͟𝐎͟𝐗 𝓕𝐋𝐄𝐓𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐑 , @noxwoe]

he looked down towards the floor, now having to blink back his own tears. it has been years since he cried, years since he’s shown off any signs of weakness because he’s had to remain strong.

he was not about to tear +

[𓏲 ๋ ˖ ZIG ்⋆ @IRATUSZIG]

+ than me…” he softly said, sniffling softly with a shaky sigh.

[𓏲 ๋ ˖ ZIG ்⋆ @IRATUSZIG]

he closed his eyes as he tried to calm down. he shakily inhaled, sniffling softly, trying to wipe away his tears, only to have more fall. he shook his head quickly.

“no, n-no…i never…i never meant to make you feel that way…i just…i didn’t wanna drag you +

[˚.⋆ 𝓛𝐄𝐍𝐍͟𝐎͟𝐗 𝓕𝐋𝐄𝐓𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐑 , @noxwoe]

he watched him a moment longer before finally deciding to step closer. he hated to see him cry the way he was, to see him so defeated.

“ziggy, you know i would have been there for you. i would have helped you as much as +

[𓏲 ๋ ˖ ZIG ்⋆ @IRATUSZIG]

+ down with my bullshit…”

he softly said, opening his eyes again to gaze back at him.

“i-i’m so fuckin’ sorry…i…i know i should’ve communicated…i just…for a long time i felt like i was too much…i didn’t wanna be too much to you either…felt like you deserved better +

[ً @MORTlSUMBRA]

⠀so ⠀𝐯𝐢𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐥𝐲 ⠀do ⠀i ⠀know ⠀the ⠀world.

[𓏲 ๋ ˖ ZIG ்⋆ @IRATUSZIG]

he’s smoking a cigarette with a tired sigh

[𓏲 ๋ ˖ ZIG ்⋆ @IRATUSZIG]

blinks and tilts his head a bit

[𝐒𝐔𝐏𝐄𝐑 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐃 𝐊𝐈𝐃 .ᐟ @BLACKH3ARTSVAMP]

asleep , hanging upside down .

[𓏲 ๋ ˖ ZIG ்⋆ @IRATUSZIG]

+ of…being too much or…being a burden. i should’ve just…talked to you.” he softly said.

[𓏲 ๋ ˖ ZIG ்⋆ @IRATUSZIG]

he lowered his hands before gazing over at lennox. he sniffled softly and wiped at his tears to try and get rid of them, only to have more roll down his cheeks. when lennox had told him that he wasn’t mad, it was like a wave of relief had washed over him. +

[˚.⋆ 𝓛𝐄𝐍𝐍͟𝐎͟𝐗 𝓕𝐋𝐄𝐓𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐑 , @noxwoe]

he admits it was really hard to see him cry in front of him like this. he wanted so badly to just go over and hug hold, hold him and assure him everything was okay.

but he knew he couldn’t do that, it would be so +

[𓏲 ๋ ˖ ZIG ்⋆ @IRATUSZIG]

+ like some sort of weight had been lifted from his shoulders. he sniffled softly once more before shakily sighing and gazing down.

“…i never meant to make you feel like that. or like you didn’t matter to me i just-…i was scared../really/ scared +