Sometimes doing art can be both depressing and painful but also uplifting when you get something right you've been struggling. I've never been the best artist, I try to improve but some times I hate my work and it takes me ages to complete something. Just a reminder dont give up
@MiyaMewrilee Yesterday i spent all day under my parasol in the garden cause the house was too hot. Today it was unbearable outside but inside it was cooler so i stayed in the coldest room with a fan 🪭 thank god no work tomorrow there is no way i would leave my dogs alone in a heat wave
But for now i just want to enjoy my life and take a step away from the chaos and poop. Perhaps ill return more actively in the future for now ill pop in whenever i have the desire to show some artwork
Work really fulfills me socially that when I'm home the last thing i want to do is make effort with people who honestly dont care for me that much which is fine. I'm just content to be in my corner with the friends who love me and let others fade away.
Mostly posting this because i feel less compelled to be active on social media and just honestly burnt out with the state of art community/ the world/ disconnect with people and no longer can give excuses for people to stay. I will try to appear once in a while.
Been in a hermit hole after work reading the plated prisoner series. Just reading books after work helps me rest more than working on my desk on art but ill be back. For now i give my beautiful flowers.
I am alive, between work and some health stuff ive been enjoying spring in my garden while planning a prequel to the book ive written. Planned to publish this year but without prequel it might be confusing. Hope to do art and get to writing after work Monday. Need to kick my ass
Dealing with some health stuff thats left me feeling exhausted. Just be kind to people, don't break them because friendship, relationship w,e doesn't suit you. Let them live in health not in struggle.
Living with anxiety and health issues sucks because doctors always think im overreacting and tell me lines like ah we cant measure anxiety. Quite aware. Wish people weren't so dismissive. In those moments i just feel so alone with no one to fight in my corner. Im so exhausted.