bipolar 18 year old with binge eating disorder and bulimia since I was 11 🌷 4'11(147cm) and CW 210lbs(95kg) BMI 43 🌺 Feel free to bully me 🌸 UGW 110lbs 🐈⬛
My mom keeps saying I seem different these days, keeps saying I have no energy or motivation. I feel the same as usual but maybe she's right? I don't know.
yall gotta understand that tons of people romanticize their struggles to cope with them.
not just eds, but any struggle. to make them feel less crushingly depressing.
thats an extremely normal coping mechanism. and its not the same as "promoting" those struggles.
Really been letting myself go this week I haven't been cleaning my room doing proper hygiene drinking enough water getting enough steps in or doing my diet well I just suck god
I associate my fatness with masculinity unfortunately. I don't think i can ever view myself as girly or feminine until im small. :( a girly girl wouldn't have fat leaking out from her gut, or eat copious amounts of food enough to feed an army. Im so manly
SORRY I'VE BEEN FORGETTING TO UPDATE THIS 😭 BEEN BUSY LOL we're just gonna skip to today bcuz it's been uneventful
MAY 20TH
Fast : 12hr
Intake : 1427
Exercise : 5k steps