That was the version of making myself small so others felt bigger despite the sacrifices I made. And itโs the hardest lesson I learned because some people just donโt give a fuck and thatโs okay. It benefited you in some way and it made a better version of me.
I question it but I built the pillar that they couldnโt see in the moment so it does bring me some joy. I saw a way out even when they couldnโt.
I wasnโt being the victim when I brought it to their attention but really wanting them to understand the grace and the fuck I gave
Seems like my hardest seasons came from my heart being too genuine.
Sometimes I wonder do I just enjoy this pain or rather deal with that pain then watch my love ones suffer.
If I told you I was in a dark place, how would you react?
So many people that I love donโt hear this often and just assume Iโm okay. I havenโt been but Iโm getting there I see the light at the end of the tunnel.
He was cool to talk about the girl he was thinking about to now running away from the convo ๐๐ญ did he figure out he gave me too much tea with the first real crush ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ