So do I walk back everything I said? Do I stick to it? I have no idea. I removed the post because it was a lot of emotion bundled up that needed to get out that probably shouldn't have been put on X.. But I do still feel genuinely hurt.
Regardless it was a wakeup call to grow up a bit and stop taking everything so fucking seriously. Will I actually be able to do that? Who knows. I'm existing by myself with the only interaction with fellow humans I get outside of work is with my Tarkov friends as few as they are..
I'm sorry for my previous crying bitch post, but I don't regret saying what was said.
I'm still going to take a huge step back because being as attached as I am to this space is not healthy.
That being said, I was offered a spot afterall... so I'll see you lovely gamers in the steamer challenge tournament. ๐ฅฒ Thank you for understanding why I felt the way I did. I may not get anywhere near winning, but at least I can be there representing the game I've been so dedicated to over the last 5 years and 14k hours. I hope others in similar situations to mine also get a chance. We may be small in viewership but we are probably Tarkov's biggest and most dedicated gamers!
@Coophound If you have one in your area, check your local Target. The one in my area does sales almost weekly that is something along the lines of 3 - 12paks for $20 or something to that effect.
Kai's birthday is on the 27th!
IF YOU WOULD LIKE TO HELP MAKE IT SPECIAL:
https://t.co/c7PHz7qdJu - My @official_throne wishlist.
A happy birthday wish/message to Kai would also be loved. ๐ฅฐ
update: this month has been a wild one for me.
my relationship ended but iโm picking up the pieces of my heart while moving to a new home. streams are gonna return soon when im settled ๐ซถ ty for your understanding
Woke up with a fever, and overslept my alarm...
.. Betting all this medical shit gonna cost my job soon and I am stressed out... So I sick cause of that too... Yeah..
No stream tonight..