Throne

Note to Myself ✍️

[Pyrate @CEOLandshark]

excellent summary of what "inner" work is all about

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@NicholasVerge

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@def__ibrahim__ >Then proceeds to rawdog 20+ bullet games.
>Wins some, loses some.
>Rating displacement: 0.
>"Will study theory, play longer games, and do analysis… from tomorrow."

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So I’m choosing the opposite.

I’m going all in. I’ll feel things fully.
I’ll care loudly. I’ll love recklessly. I’ll get excited like a kid and hurt like a human.

Because one day, after I’ve lived enough
maybe I will become nonchalant.

But when I get there, it won’t be an act.

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I’m done pretending to be nonchalant.

Because I finally understand something

True nonchalance isn’t an aesthetic. It’s not a vibe. It’s something you have to earn.

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If I start imitating that “too-cool-to-care” attitude now,

Which is the most surface level trait of Nonchalance

I’ll build emotional armor I haven’t even needed yet.
I’ll numb myself before life even has the chance to touch me.

And that’s not strength. That’s premature death.

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@CEOLandshark Is that adaptability something you can develop by repeatedly throwing yourself into the arena and feeling that knot in your stomach, facing the discomfort, and gradually building that ‘improv muscle’ through exposure? Or is it something you either naturally have or don’t?

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This picture always stirs something inside me that I can't even articulate.

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@coltybrah Most over-optimizers especially young folks who go full schizo-biohacker route, do it because they’re not really living.

They feel life slipping by, but instead of facing it, they try to preserve themselves, holding onto youth so one day they will finally get to live.

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@coltybrah Most over-optimizers especially young folks who go full schizo-biohacker route, do it because they’re not really living.

They feel life slipping by, but instead of facing it, they try to preserve themselves, holding onto youth so one day they will finally get to live.

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I'm gonna brainwash the fuck outta myself

Delusion-maxxing.

Reality is bendable.

Destiny? Come get me, you stupid bitch.

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@0x45o Burned down the house of that guy who kept using GPT to write the vaguest comments under every tweet

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It's been years

Not a single waking hour where I have let my brain feel silence.

Media is killing me.

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By the time I will understand how right my dad is, I will probably have a son who will think I am wrong.

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@ElishaDLong Too much thinking has made me fucking numb

Can't feel anything

RetardMaxxing is the way