And I have no one to even go to about this. Crying alone and I just want to be held and told it’s all going to be okay.
Instead I lay here crying and holding my sloth cause that’s all I got. I just want my life to be fucking normal.
My chest hurts
The ball in my throat is suffocating
My eyes are irratated
My head is pounding
Everyday
Every night
Every moment alone just a second too long with my own thoughts.
I stand on what I did.
I deal with the consequences of my actions.
And I will continue to do WHATEVER n WHOEVER I want as long as it doesn’t negatively affect my kids.
No one will have control over me, my decisions, my household or my kids again. Last time I checked. I AM SINGLE. I AM SINGLE. I AM FUCKING SINGLE I can fuck WHOMEVER I fucking want as long as they are CONSENTING ADULTS.