I realize that God’s protection often looks like disappointment at first. You thought you lost something, but God was really saving you from it. I’m so thankful for everything that didn’t go my way & every single thing that prepared me for where I am now.
I think I’m going through a phase right now, like I’m finally coming to terms with actually letting a lot of things go…. Weather it’s friends, family, relationships, feelings, fears, just any and everything. it’s literally time for new beginnings, with new chapters that bring happiness, peace, love & good memories. it’s just time to move on with my life.
God is very intentional. Nothing about your life is random. Not the delays, not the detours, not even the waiting. He knows exactly what He's doing. Please learn to trust him more this year.
Life is like a boomerang. What you put out will come back and unfold right in your face. Most of the time it’ll come when you least expect it. Good or bad, it’ll make its way back to you.
As independent as I am, I still love to be babied. Acts of service are how I feel loved. I don’t care about money, just lighten my load. I’m too prideful to ask for help, but when you take the initiative and handle things without me saying a word… that means everything.
I'm finally coming to terms with the fact that as much as l wanted certain love, certain people, certain versions of my life, that just isn't my reality right now. And as painful as that is to admit, what hurts even more is realizing how close l came to losing myself trying to hold it all together. Fighting for things that didn't fight for me, pushing for things that didn't belong in my life anymore, trying to force situations that deep down I knew were slowly breaking me. And I can't do that to myself anymore. I can't keep abandoning myself just to avoid losing someone else. So if letting go means I lose people, memories, plans, or the life I thought I'd have by now, then I'm learning to be okay with that. Because at the end of all of this, I still have to live with myself. And no one talks about how hard it is to keep your head up and your heart open when you feel broken and heavy inside. But I know one thing for sure I'm my own home, my own safe place, my own constant. And I'm not losing her for anything or anyone. So whatever happens next, however life looks after this, I'll be okay because this time, I chose myself.
My goal right now is to just HEAL. Heal my heart. Heal my mind. Heal my soul. It’s time to fully get over the wrong that's been done to me, the pain I've endured, the trauma I've experienced, and anything that has happened to me that didn't sit right with me.
I’m at a point in my life where I pray to keep meeting the right people. People who genuinely want the best for me, hold me in high regard, and add peace to my life.
I really love the era I’m in right now 🥹 It’s soft. It’s peaceful. It feels aligned. My focus is simple: my children, my peace, my personal growth, and my happiness. Nothing else matters. That’s it! That’s the priority 🌱🥰