Physix | Lewis

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[Physix | Lewis @ItsPhysix]

@TeaGuvnor @Simon11634 @adzantick @symdota @TheRceze @meow_spirit Will be awesome to see adz and sym again gl guys

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@Fragnancewow @megcantplay Congrats mate

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@NigmaGalaxy Good showing, shame about last draft but what can you do I guess

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@paulolden1 @coladaclan You need to add "I'm from here (1/15th)" to Ireland/Italy

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Know it's late in the season but still proud of what we achieved as a newly formed guild this year

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@NigmaGalaxy You played the last 20 minutes of game 2 so well and that winning fight, haven't seen one that hype since ti8. So good

[BLAST SLAM @BLASTDota]

.@NigmaGalaxy is 3-1 now! 🔥

WHAT'S HAPPENING??

[Marvin / Punico @MrPunico]

What a sad day.

[Physix | Lewis @ItsPhysix]

@i_am_a_momo @ITBesports Am happy to provide information from my tenure with ITB if needed to further investigations

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@ITBesports We parted ways badly sure, but the org genuinely helped pave the way for young aspiring players to find their way in their chosen discipline. I hope the org can recover and that people find the help they need

[Physix | Lewis @ItsPhysix]

This is why both sides of the story are important

[Zaelia @Zaeliaa]

I generally dont talk about my personal life in public but heres my side

My ex and I met in 2021 and our relationship did not start out in normal fashion or how it probably ”should be”. It was imbalanced from start where she really wanted for us to be in a committed relationship and I was basically convinced into it. Not ideal and I should perhaps have known better but at that time I didn’t.

She wanted things to move very fast, such as trying to move into my house, looking for jobs in Denmark behind my back, ”expecting” to be able to live at my place if she found one.

Also just showing up unannounced at times, kinda problematic since she went from Sweden to Denmark and I had no choice but to let her in and ”hang out”.

I was in a relationship that obviously didn’t feel right and I tried to talk to her about it multiple times. I would ask her ”Do you think that what we have is good? Don’t you think there is something wrong?” and she’d respond with things in line with ”No, I don’t. All couples fight and its completely normal to have problems”, and I obviously felt like, yea sure, but aren’t you supposed to fix the problems.

Most often when I came to her with a problem it was like she started crying before I even got the first sentence out and from that point it was just impossible.

What we’d normally fight about was me letting her know our ”relationship” wasn’t working for me, and then she’d say that I didn’t try or put enough effort in. If the ”putting in effort” is a person having to pretend to feel something they don’t, then thats kinda cooked, and generally I’d have to hear some version of her loving me so so much as if thats supposed to be enough to justify staying together.

Another decently relevant thing we fought about was about her staying at my place. She would come and stay at my place and legit never leave.

The First time we met each other I went to her for a short weekend. Then she asked if she could come with me home, which well she did, and then she stayed for a month.
After about 5 days I started asking ”sooo.. what’s the plan”. I started to hint ”Do u not think it’s time to go home?”. Anyway, somehow she ended up staying a month.

The days leading up to her departure in general was always miserable and awkward, as she was either blissfully ignoring time and space, basically living an eternal vacation in my home, or being upset with me for bringing up the fact that perhaps its time to head back home to Sweden..

At some point we had a talk about her coming here again. I told her ”You need to book a trip home before coming.” as a requirement, and she did.

On the day she had to leave though she was ”too sick” to go home. Headache or something similar. And I was like… ”ok, wait until u feel better”, expecting her to actually leave once she did, which she didn’t. So I asked her what’s her plan, waiting for her to leave. The days after she was supposed to leave, but didn’t, she didn’t speak to me about it at all. I didn’t wanna speak to her either until she would basically tell me she had a plan for leaving again, so we walked around in silence for a few days.

She said that every time she left she felt like she left for good. Like it was the last time. Honestly there was probably a reason she felt that way. I just wasn’t ever really happy with the whole thing. The dating or ”relationship” was clearly off.

We had a fight which resulted in me driving away. I needed space and it’s not like she would have left even if I asked.

That time she called my parents in panic, crying, saying that she was worried about me hurting myself or ”doing something bad”, ”worrying for my life”. I had never given off any reason to where she would believe that, if anything I had been mega reassuring in the past that I never could hurt myself or similar while having other random conversations.

Our fights were many and frustrating with sometimes yelling from both sides, mostly they were awkward, never violent.

As mentioned we had issues with her not wanting to talk about our problems, not leaving my house etc, so I tried to come up with something.

I arranged to meet up in Copenhagen, to talk in a neutral space, so we could actually part ways after it. Closer to her home so she could feel a bit more comfortable with engaging in a conversation about our problems, instead of bunkering up in my house cause she feels bad, basically trapping us both. I tried to talk to her about it but it didn’t quite work out as planned and somehow we ended up on ”fine let’s try again then” even though she knew what I actually wanted (to part ways).

The last fight we had was basically about everything that’s included in here. She showed up unannounced after we had spoken on phone the day before, I wanted her to leave my house and she refused. We argued and I was mindful about how I was acting and careful. But I literally said ”I don’t want to be together” and her response was ”why does it always have to be your way or the highway!”, well because it takes two people to be in a relationship, but I guess I was a prisoner and she made that very clear.

It sort of escalated with yelling and at some point she got so angry she quarterback threw her wallet at me. This was for sure a line crossed for me emotionally and it made me walk up to her and I said in her face ”leave now”. We stood there basically just staring at each other, she was NOT leaving. So I grabbed her upper arms moving towards the door like a bouncer at a club trying to escort someone too drunk out. She said ”don’t touch me”, I let go and asked her ”well what the fuck do you want me to do then? Call the police?”. Which she responded to with full ridicule.

She then instead proceeded by going into the bathroom, took a shower or whatever she actually did (not leaving). So I grabbed a sack while she had locked herself in and started putting her things in it so that when she could come out she could just leave. I put the sack on a chair, was calm again, then she came out of the shower, I told her I packed her things and she told me she had called my parents in the bathroom and that they were on their way. After that she started unpacking what I had packed. She took out one of her bras from the sack and put it back in my drawer. I of course didn’t want it and it was honestly just so insanely disturbing how out of touch i felt she was with the situation..

I went to her again like the doorman that I apparently was, trying to steer her out the house and this was when she threw herself on the ground not wanting to go, and i was just standing there watching her not sure what to do.

After this she went into the bathroom again, and I set up my phone to record from the kitchen because things started to feel really strange, but nothing happened until my parents showed up 10 minutes later since she was in the bathroom those entire 10 minutes.

(The thing she said about the door slamming was when she went to the bathroom. She was the one who slammed the door first, which I thought about since it was my door and I like my things intact. But then I slammed another door in some weird response cause I guess yeah we slamming doors now.)

My parents arrived, I talked to my dad in the kitchen giving him a rundown about what had happened. My mom went and talked to her and then they somewhat started packing her things together while my dad and I went outside for a while. They then took her home to their place where she’d stay until the train home would leave.

The option of me leaving to get some air was gone since last time I left she made my parents think I was suicidal.
The option of calling the police on her was ridiculed by her. She’d laugh it off and shame me for even having the thought. But this was clearly the right thing to do in hindsight and I wish I did.
As soon as she threw something at me, in my eyes I saw her as nothing but a home invader trespasser squatter whatever u name it.

I offered to drive her to the train station, I offered to drive her to nearby hotel and buy a room for her, but it wasn’t good enough, she begged me to stay in the house another night, refused to accept anything other than exactly that. I also called her mom asking for help to make her leave. They had a talk but nothing came out of it.
I regret trying to remove her myself instead of calling the police. My way wasn’t the best way either.

Moving on. We clearly broke up and that was when she started telling people I abused her. It did not take longer than her getting home before it started. She started telling wow players, people I knew, and basically anybody that would listen.

I didn’t know what to do and after a week-ish of fighting, I asked if she wanted to meet to potentially see more eye to eye so I asked if we could talk and I drove to Sweden after she agreed.

Half way there I was afk charging my car, she said that she wasn’t sure if this was a good idea so I asked her if she wanted me to turn around and she said no.

When I arrived she said ”lets go for a walk and leave our phones inside I don’t wanna be recorded”, she wanted to take a walk in the middle of the night and I wasn’t feeling that so we ended up sitting and talking in my car for hours. I made it very clear immediatly, that i had zero intentions of ever going into a romantic relationship with her again, and expressed my remorse with how I tried to remove her from my house, even if I had my reasons it was handled poorly and not the right way to go, (like I said before I should have called the police). We ended on ”good terms”.

Couple weeks later I had to go to the Race to world first in Växjö and I drove past where she lives and we talked for an hour ish.
During this hour she broke down crying to me telling me about all these people planning ”bad things to you and echo”. She was crying about what she had done, feeling the omega remorse and gave the impression that she wanted to fix what she broke. She showed me screenshots and texts of people basically plotting against Echo, and this Klara person specifically wanted my ex to lead the charge.
Here we ended up on the same side, us vs the Plotters. And off I went to växjö for RWF.

A few weeks after that she went and took a test to see if she had the same gene as a family member and if she had it she would have to do some medical things about it. She called me and told me about this and said that she wanted me to be there for the process, doctors meetings etc. She pretty much said that I was the one she wanted with her, that she trusted the most.

I went twice to Sweden to be with her during those doctor visits but things were getting a little weird, as if she was hoping to reform a relationship.

After this she kept pushing some sort of contact asking to spend my birthday together at my place, with me and my family. I turned her down and she started acting weirder. For example talking to one of my best friends and teammate, Clickz, sending him selfies etc all with her wearing my old shirts.

So pretty much the past months we have been on somewhat good terms with her wanting to connect and her being remorseful etc. Until I kinda started seeing someone and she probably started picking up on small things. I wasn’t sure how to break the connection completely with her as it was a sensitive case, but I knew I had to if I wanted to respect the new ”situation” /person I was dating.
This was around when she started overly dming Clickz and acting weird in general.
A few weeks passed, I kept dating this person who also happens to be a streamer. So what happened recently was that we had been playing on stream and in voice. So the timing here kinda sus, as we know she watched the stream and once tried to join a dungeon with us (live on twitch).

Take from this what you want, the entire situation was completely fried.
I am aware that I should have realized faster that we shouldn’t see each other at all, I realized a bit too late and then every time I wanted to end things she made me feel like I would collapse her entire world if I left her.
After a while I think at some point I also started wondering if she was right about what was normal in a relationship and if I was as ”silly” as she made me out to be.
I’ve realized in the past months it’s definitely not normal to struggle as much as we did.

Last detail worth mentioning:
I did in fact go speak to a therapist, the therapist she claimed I never went to. I told them the truth and the full story including the exact physicality of things in the name of self improvement and not wanting to waste my own time now that I was there anyway.

This relationship wasn’t easy for any of us and I can imagine it must have been frustrating being her as well, I guess in a way not getting the love someone in a relationship should get.

[Physix | Lewis @ItsPhysix]

@Zaeliaa Well done for speaking up, it sounds like a rough situation and I don't know anyone who could keep their cool in a situation like that but it sounds like you did great. Hindsight is a wonderful thing but don't beat yourself up. Gl in RWF and I hope the assholes quiet down soon.

[Physix | Lewis @ItsPhysix]

@Nigel_Farage Nigel, if you're gunna try shit stirring at least make sure your information is current and correct.

[Physix | Lewis @ItsPhysix]

@elonmusk Good idea, stir up more shit you fucking idiot.

[Ellesmere @EllesmereGaming]

Healers are becoming scarce in Dragonflight and I’d like to share some thoughts on this issue before TWW. This tweet will focus on how to help the M+ healing issues as raid healing has its own set of issues.

1. Prune mob abilities. Dungeon trash mechanics are flush with interrupt/stop requirements and it’s too punishing for pugging right now. Coordination levels are frustratingly high and missed kicks/stops are often fatal at most key levels. Mob abilities need to be pruned in general as M+ has always been more fun when you can pull bigger, rather than being forced to pull pack by pack cuz you’re not in an extremely coordinated group. Putting more of a focus back on throughput and pumping damage instead of kicks and stops will be more fun for everyone and will lighten the load on healers in pugs drastically.

2. Increase healing power (esp spot healing) and buff mana regen drastically. Community surveys and polls have shown that mana management is not engaging gameplay for most healing specs, especially in m+ where you have to be pressing buttons for 30 minutes straight. Every time there was a mana return affix of some kind it felt SO good as a healer to not have to worry about that. Bring back affixes like that, increase drink speed drastically, or just increase all mana regen for healers while a key is active. Hell, make it an aura that only applies to only the healer of the group that also increases healing done by x% so healers can be more powerful in keys without affecting other game modes AND you can mitigate “no healer keys” in the higher end.

3. Change Tyrannical and aggressively tune boss mechanics. Now that we’re rotating dungeon pools every season, it’s crucial that dungeons are tuned quickly, as in past xpacs the healer burden lessened as seasons went on because dungeons got better tuned and the player base learned how to counter mechanics better and better. With rotating dungeon pools we need aggressive tuning early on every season, especially with healer check bosses so healers don’t have to shoulder that burden. Tyrannical should be changed imo from damage amp to maybe a new added ability on every boss (like HM DotI). This would place the burden on the group and mechanical outplay rather than just healing throughput / defensive usage. I recognize that may not be possible due to increased developer time so in that case I’d just go back to asking for much more aggressive dungeon tuning.

4. Prune healer abilities. Button bloat has gotten wildly out of control on most healing specs, I have almost 50 keybinds on hpal lmfao enough is enough please it’s very overwhelming for players looking to get into the role and it’s frustrating for existing players, especially as new abilities keep popping up with talents/capstones and now hero talents soon too.

5. Lower the cooldown of dispel. This will help a ton with missed pug kicks, as well as mitigating the need for abilities like mass dispel or imp dispel which have made massive differences in the difficulties of boss fights across many seasons.

Thanks for reading anyone who made it this far, I hope some of this can be looked at for TWW!

****Bonus controversial suggestion: Make healers deal more damage. I’m aware that many healers don’t want to dps at all but I think that dpsing in keys has become core to healing M+ at this point as no one wants a dungeon where you have to be spam group healing for 30 minutes straight. If we’re going to be dpsing anyways, at least let us have some fun with it and feel more impactful (for reference I mean like tank damage, not dps damage).

[Physix | Lewis @ItsPhysix]

@CroakMedia Bad choice of words I guess!!

[Physix | Lewis @ItsPhysix]

@xjellyjenkins Holy shit this is appalling, no idea who validates these utter cunts to behave this way but please know there are some decent guys out there. It's way past time for game Devs to crack down harder on these people and also laws to be introduced to protect people from this shit

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@CroakMedia Yeah but it gives me a great excuse to try wild hair colours

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@CroakMedia Not yet! Working on it though

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@CroakMedia 35 and countin