Ivy Mae

my “toxic” acc idc… H: 5’4 CW: 129 lbs GW1: 125 lbs UGW: 99 lbs // 18+ only

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

@layla_of_edtwt as much as possible lol

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

@_wannaspears moots?

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

@omadlynn yeah the reason why i gained the weight back was guilt, and no one “cared” enough. But im not doing this for other people im doing this for me.

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

woke up at 9am, weighed myself still 127.6 lbs… felt sick and drank water with electrolytes :) im gonna continue with restricting and probably do some night walks in the future

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

when people bring up “starvation mode” 🙄i just wanna scream at them. Just shut the fuck up.

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

well go get yourself one! Don’t try to fatten me up. fuck being skinnyfat. I’m tried of people controlling what i eat and wanting me fat.

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

weighed myself again at 3 am because i can’t sleep… 127.8 lbs yeah just water… i mean i starved myself for a week straight before so this will be a piece of cake 🍰 (haha… can’t stop thinking about food) i feel so numb inside, i hate how disgusting my body looks…

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

i’ll post pics maybe when i reach my goal weight but it looks so embarrassing.., I fucking hate that man who kept feeding me disgusting food with pounds of butter. They overfeed you just for their sick sexual fantasies. “ i like a curvier woman with a fat ass”

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

the curves on my hips and my protruding belly… i fucking hate that i’m a rectangle. why tf do i lose weight on my arms and chest first but i never have a tiny waist or flat stomach? and on top of that a puffy face… eh good thing i have a thigh gap at this stage.

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

slowly waiting for my stomach to calm tf down so i can sleep 😃

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

i had a bowl of oatmeal (180) and a whole chocolate bar (480)… and two sugar free energy drinks. i ain’t eating anything else today…

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

@eeaaoj whereee

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

@stimabuse never again.. he made me feel like shit about by weight and how i looked… 😔

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

@Ememmeeme @lsdbunnie what are her videos on tt?

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

@danniexel me

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

@gir1sp0 @dollycalzies i feel that way when i binge :(

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

yes- i celebrate every pound down, negative self talk will make me binge 🤡

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

finally- 129 lbs idk why it took so long- I finally stopped eating so much greasy foods , could be just water weight lol, just glad to be out of 130s 🤢 i do not carry fat that well at all.. I hate being a rectangle built.

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

i’m gonna hoard a bunch of pink and hello kitty stuff to heal my inner child.. idgaf anymore

[Ivy Mae @IvyMayleaf]

i just want to experience grace…