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At the end, I'm just full of words. But I just don't know how to get them out of me. || @jjsolert

[𝕵𝖚𝖆𝖓𝖏𝖔 𝕾𝖔𝖑𝖊𝖗 @jjsolert]

Se ha diSuelto una década
en el fondo de estas dos miradas
y me arde la sien
al vOlver a aquel primer aliento

no sé si ese amor al final se fue
si existió la fe
o si de verdad te esToy echando de menos
si estoy perdido
y vuelvo a lo cierto
o si es que contigo
hay algO incompleto

[𝕵𝖚𝖆𝖓𝖏𝖔 𝕾𝖔𝖑𝖊𝖗 @jjsolert]

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[✍🏼✨ @J2Soler]

Today I knew about evil
and, honestly, I let its savour
dance around my tongue
turning the walls of my throat into gold
but it's still not me the one who faces the mirror

I've tried fire
even frozen desires
but I can't find myself
maybe I'm just that earthy body laying there

[✍🏼✨ @J2Soler]

the only darkness I want to face
is your body fighting againts
the sun lights that wake us up
when another blue day starts to run

[✍🏼✨ @J2Soler]

i put my paintings on the wall
i'm already even yours
but there's no light when i get home

fly me away — it's getting challenging even for my soul

[✍🏼✨ @J2Soler]

We were walking down some roads
and every one of them led us to the port
You could even think we were lost
but in a strange city
I just need him
to be safe and warm

[✍🏼✨ @J2Soler]

They ask why I keep having my thoughts and emotions documented — Well, that is pretty much what I am. My golden flesh will turn into grey ashes and decease, but my soul is stronger. When I'm gone, I'll be loaded just with one big thing: my poetry.

[✍🏼✨ @J2Soler]

In one of my stories
u sat down to write three times

don't you think love is for lovers
and not for thoughts of crime?

[✍🏼✨ @J2Soler]

i would't be here anymore if it weren't cause I knew Lana's music 11 years ago. loneliness and depression are huge enemies honestly and she keeps giving me every tear of love and company I've never had but I've always needed. i lost friends, i'm alone again but I still have her.

[✍🏼✨ @J2Soler]

and it hurts to remember
the stories still exist there, but not them
and the dust keeps reminding me
that I get what I deserve

I don't want to believe
that there's poison in my breath
that it's my fault that they run away

at least I have Lana
in every sound of every day

[✍🏼✨ @J2Soler]

it's like I've never had a mother
and we're not even talking about my men
but life is getting sharper
as I get closer to the loneliness I never wanted
cause I keep losing every thread
that built my memories over and over again

[✍🏼✨ @J2Soler]

You think u're bigger now
just because ur body looks so

But today I was going back in time as the wind crossed my rooftop to touch me
and I remembered ur heart was a higher percentage of it in 2015

That made u feel pretty invincible
and tomorrow u'll be just nothing at all

[✍🏼✨ @J2Soler]

Melodies haunt me as the wind force my hair to dance
I know it sounds caothic
But that's how freedom taste for me

I'm the starring role
I'm in the eye of the storm
You're mine
and I'm also yours

I still see you behind my eyelids
Because God, that's how free
you make me feel

[✍🏼✨ @J2Soler]

You're day
and I'm night

You're mind
and I'm art

But we collide
at dawn and dusk
and I might be right
because we found this invincible love that we have

[✍🏼✨ @J2Soler]

i met an Angel
but he had less time than me
so he taught me life gets stranger and stranger

my blood was just thirteen
and his clock loved to ring

i wish i could build your final wish
where you and i are both
nothing but
free

[✍🏼✨ @J2Soler]

The New Cathedral of Coimbra still remembers our faces
I was on my kness praying in front of you
but I guess sins
get forgiven in sacred places
and that made me feel out of the loop

God, take me there again
it's pretty tiring when u already know what's going to happen

[✍🏼✨ @J2Soler]

pero las termitas alcanzan mi cerebro
y sus mordiscos ametrallan cada uno de mis pensamientos
cuando te digo que no
cuando te digo que lo siento

pero es que tú tampoco estabas
cuando yo te gritaba desde lejos
te diste la vuelta
sin tejer ni un intento

[✍🏼✨ @J2Soler]

siento remordimiento por no saciar tus reclamos
incluso cuando me acuerdo de cada vez que vuelvo solo a casa
y es como si nunca me hubiera marchado

ya no me extraña que no me extrañes
porque el hábito es débil
y se acostumbra a todos los males

[✍🏼✨ @J2Soler]

the more I get into the unknown
the more I'd like to be by my own

i know it's hard
to drop the potential love of my life
but I'm scared I could get trapped
in so many ways between your arms

excuses out
you're all yours
and I'm totally mine

and at least
I'm still on time

[✍🏼✨ @J2Soler]

I'm still dyeing my hair blonde
to remember I'll always be yours
as you did for Diana, Sylvia and Marilyn - and every lost bird of paradise
because I find gold in every step you take
because I'm also trying to defeat my dark mind