If the old you and the new you
are fighting over ownership of your mind, you can’t win.
Both of them will eventually lose.
The solution is to merge both;
the person you deeply want to be and all your past lessons,
into a whole and complete self.
If only there were an organization that could provide a scouting experience just for girls, without requiring them to join a boys' organization. It could be called, I dunno, the Girl Scouts.