Negi

[Negi @JackGamma]

Hello to any who manage to stumble upon this account. I wanted to start an account for kind of vent/diary purposes. Not sure how frequent tweets will be here but dont expect much out me, please.

[Negi @JackGamma]

...moreso than ever and is taking the steps to start it up which I think is cool. Reminds me I got to do the same. As for a job, I'll probably do some Doordash for now so I'm not just losing money while I look for a proper replacement. Anyways have a good night y'all

[Negi @JackGamma]

Hard to keep up with these posts daily cause I keep forgetting lol I'll do yesterday's here and tonight in the same post since not a whole lot has happened.

I haven't been good about really doing a ton but I'm really getting back into learning Spanish and I think at the rate...

[Negi @JackGamma]

...I'm doing it I'll actually learn it and retain the info to where I can start reading and listening to it properly. Yesterday I did go hang out with a friend for a brief moment which was cool since we haven't done anything is a minute. Seems like he's invested in his project...

[Negi @JackGamma]

...but I am coherent enough to notice that something is shifting. I just have to be aware if what exactly and move into the right direction. Have a good night/morning yall!

[Negi @JackGamma]

...out in that regard. Emotions themselves run low as always, I hardly feel any real drive for anything but I did start drawing again so perhaps that's not entirely true. I did have some to drink as me and a friend were doing a challenge so I'm typing this not entirely sober....

[Negi @JackGamma]

...stability lined up. Mostly stayed in call again (Obliterated my sleep schedule again lol) but at least I'm not just sticking to myself and rotting I suppose. Tomorrow I plan on hanging out with a friend in a bit of a similar spot as me and maybe we can both help each other...

[Negi @JackGamma]

10/3
Not a ton happened today as per usual. I'm trying to actually learn a Spanish and stick with it as of late and I feel like today I really doubled down on that so it can come in handy with where I live. Not much else tho. I need to sign up for more jobs and get that...

[Negi @JackGamma]

I'm starting to understand just how easy it is to stay at home and do nothing but I've at least turned in another Job application. Hopefully I can get one soon so I both don't go broke and can start leaving my house more

[Negi @JackGamma]

I was up til 5am in a Voice Chat yesterday so I didn't really post a daily update so I'll just say it right now and continue on tonight
10/2
A rather mundane day. Didn't go out though I normally head to a Smash Event on Wednesdays but I just didn't really feel like going...

[Negi @JackGamma]

Yeah I think this account can just become my full fledged schizo ramblings account. I'll do the daily checks at the end of the day but I might tweet random shit on my mind too depends on how I'm feeling

[Negi @JackGamma]

...format of doing daily stuff just to keep a clear idea of everything to catalog. That was the whole point of this account after all. I'm thinking about just staying up for right now to do some writing but we'll see how long that lasts. Night!

[Negi @JackGamma]

...a lot of my time at home just kind of rotting ngl. I did get an idea of where I want to head in the future which is a good start but man. Hopping back into the drivers seat is way tougher than I realized. Or maybe it's just gotten more difficult I'm unsure. Either way I...

[Negi @JackGamma]

...plan on getting another job soon, where I can pay all my bills and have money left over to go back to school and actually finish it. Get a Computer Science degree of some kind and get a job in that field. Then I can rot max all I want for all I care. I'll go back to my old...

[Negi @JackGamma]

...is to stay inside all day. I lost my job a few months back and I've kind of been in a sort of limbo state. Still been playing a lot of Competitive Smash Ultimate but that's about it. Days are kind of blurring together and although I do go out sometimes I've been spending...

[Negi @JackGamma]

Whoops a classic case of me forgetting that I even said I wanted to do daily posts lol. Well I guess we'll get to the point. I moved into my own apartment back in June, which is a first for me. Living completely on my own has been nice, but I'm starting to realize how easy it...

[Negi @JackGamma]

It does make me a bit sad that Christmas ultimately has lost its charm for me but I'd love to share the experience I had as a kid in the future if I were to have kids. Welp good night/morning and Merry Christmas

[Negi @JackGamma]

12/24
Went home early today since work closed early. Mostly been watching videos on evolution and the Great Dying, then playing games with friends. Overall I think I've felt mostly tired and indifferent but in some instances happy.

[Negi @JackGamma]

I'd obviously tell them before doing this but it's something I've considered for some time now. That and reducing my internet usage once more, cause I've been falling into old habits once more that I'd like to at least regulate more. Welp have a good night and Merry Christmas Eve

[Negi @JackGamma]

12/23
Another plain day but I felt actually happy weirdly enough. Or at the very least I can say that I felt more definitively happy than just indifferent or emotionally numb. I don't think anything really changed to do that tho so I'm not sure what's different about today

[Negi @JackGamma]

Maybe it's just the fact Christmas is coming up and it means I'm getting an extended portion of time off I'm unsure. I'm thinking of possibly taking a whole week away from talking with my friends and seeing if the isolation may have an effect on my mind