Void Screaming

This is where I vent

[Roxy @RoxyTall]

I’ve never gotten over this one

[Void Screaming @JackieChun]

@Raquayza19 @TripleEgg45 @SethEverman Are you having a stroke?

[Void Screaming @JackieChun]

@LisaRules Yeah, I'm sure you meant that after more than an hour's series of replies about how everyone in Arkansas is/was fucking their cousins. Seems very sincere.

[Void Screaming @JackieChun]

@LisaRules Wasn't the first tweet that you implied everyone in Arkansas was inbred in an effort to make fun of the people living there for the election when 35% of voters didn't vote for her and 81% of the total population didn't vote for her?

[Void Screaming @JackieChun]

@LisaRules Also again trying to inform you you're far out of your depth on who you're talking to https://t.co/PCRbbWRJcD

[Void Screaming @JackieChun]

@LisaRules It's not surprising to me that you're ignoring this and digging in

[Void Screaming @JackieChun]

@LisaRules Just FYI you're responding to a pretty well-respected anti-cult activist and researcher like a moron

https://t.co/PCRbbWRJcD

[Void Screaming @JackieChun]

Ha, okay, guess she'll just go to bed without saying anything to me. Not mad at all.

[Void Screaming @JackieChun]

No, no, I'm okay. It totally doesn't make me feel like shit that my wife is always put and when she is home she goes into the other room and if I try to be any kind of affectionate she pushes me away and then puts headphones in. It doesn't make me absolutely die inside.

[Void Screaming @JackieChun]

Wife: you don't have any friends, I'm like your only friend

Yes, thanks, I definitely needed that pointed out to me right before I try to go to sleep.

[Void Screaming @JackieChun]

It seems like barring a couple exceptions (who generally are fairly busy so they can't be around all the time), I have cycled in and out friends every couple years since high school and I just kind of wish it would stop. I'm old and tired, I just want people to spend time with.

[Void Screaming @JackieChun]

I think I'm about to fall into a pretty bad hole mental health-wise. Lately I have been feeling extremely shit in general and even when I'm in a good mood I'm just kind of waiting for something to snap me out of it and send me back to the bad feelings.

[Void Screaming @JackieChun]

Quite frankly I feel completely alone recently and I honestly can't tell if I did or did not do something to push people away. Sure, sometimes people are incompatible. But did I facilitate that incompatibility or was it natural? Why does it seem to happen so much to me?

[Void Screaming @JackieChun]

People really do be like "well I'm not in school anymore so I just stop thinking"

[Void Screaming @JackieChun]

Decided the biggest problem is that no one critically analyzes anything anymore is the definitive problem in the world. Hot take, I know

[Void Screaming @JackieChun]

Every time I scratch more of the surface level "man that was coooooool" or look into anything more than "thing bad," people take it as actually attacking them. It is actually insane that critical thought is such a hard to find commodity