Jaded

#edtwt

[Jaded @Jad_3d]

ive wrecked my digestion, ive destroyed my body image, ive restricted and restricted and ive only morphed my body into a worse, less desirable form. Im not necessarily “recovering” but im trying to take a different approach to reach my goals.

[Jaded @Jad_3d]

Bye for now. #edtwt

[Jaded @Jad_3d]

ive wrecked my digestion, ive destroyed my body image, ive restricted and restricted and ive only morphed my body into a worse, less desirable form. Im not necessarily “recovering” but im trying to take a different approach to reach my goals.

[Jaded @Jad_3d]

Part of me doesnt want to leave, a huge part of me feels like a failure, but i will be back. I will be better and hopefully I can figure this all out and share my experience with others to help someone that may need it too. Thank you to everyone thats ever helped me.

[Jaded @Jad_3d]

im still very sick in the head. I dont know if my mind will ever heal from this all, idek if my body will. I’ve abused lax before but ive stopped and a part of the digestive issues can be from that; however, i know its from my poor nutrition too.

[Jaded @Jad_3d]

Part of me likes this feeling because i think my restrictions are finally “working”- but when i look in the mirror i only look worse. TMI but i cant use the bathroom properly and when i do its not a proper BM. My appetite is wrecked, i dont have a set time to eat.

[Jaded @Jad_3d]

im so deeply in love

[Jaded @Jad_3d]

@myyakcal yes

[Jaded @Jad_3d]

i feel a binge coming on

[Jaded @Jad_3d]

@angelcakecals this is so cute

[Jaded @Jad_3d]

@fattymaxxy this is genuinely some of the tastiest looking pasta ive ever seen