that one is for 12 year old me, for the 15 y/o in the first akf sweater, the 16 y/o with the jerk necklace and so so many more but also the 28 y/o with the Sam Winchester playlist. who knew I had to be depressed, get new friends, move to the city and get married first?
#purcon
[ashing a cigarette in the energy drink Iβm holding in my other hand as the world around me collapses into fascism]: yeah I think if I just start eating better my mental health will improve
No one wants to actually get better anymore everyone just wants to stay dysfunctional and be told that its okay and not their fault and there's nothing they can do about it anyway
yes, it's harder than for nt people but if I don't push myself to do things, to go out, to talk to people I KNOW it gets worse. I'll always have to fight to function and that sucks and it's unfair but I refuse to give up. too much to do and see and experience that's worth it
I'm autistic and the worst thing I ever had to do was go on an international work trip by myself and you know what? exposure therapy does work. do I wish to repeat that? no. but whenever I go out alone now, I think "well I went to Italy by myself so I can do this too"