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[` @JaeJeiJay_]

Tapos mag sesend ka ng ganun ngayon? Namimiss mo ako? Bakit? Bakit ngayon lang? Nasaan ba ako sa'yo nang mga nakaraang buwan na nag rereach out ako sayo? Wala? Or it's just intentional that you were shitting on me? Playing with my emotions?

[` @JaeJeiJay_]

She's not obliged to do it. But kahit manlang bilang isang kaibigan? Let's remove the factor na yes, gusto ko siya. Pero as a friend manlang?? Wala talaga?

That's why I just made some assumptions and tried to move forward without communicating anymore with her. Ano pang sense?

[` @JaeJeiJay_]

Wala akong assurance for these past few months but still I tried reaching her out and gave her some words and make changes in my dynamics.

I tried to observe the dynamics between us since parehas namang busy pero haha doon ko na nakita lahat but I put some considerations.

[` @JaeJeiJay_]

But painful for me. Sana sa iba nalang for that atleast sumaya ka rin ng sobra nun. I was enjoying it so much lalo na ikaw pa kasama ko, yung taong gusto ko pa hahaha. Ewan I lowkey regretting it now kasi kinagat ko para lang maexperience. Sana iba nalang talaga atleast sumaya ka

[` @JaeJeiJay_]

Ewan that time after the so much and top tier happiness na naranasan ko sa buong buhay ko, I didn't expect the shiftings of her mood and behaviour sa akin.

Dunno nakaramdam ako ng parang hindi naman talaga ako ang gusto niyang kasama that time. Based nalang siguro sa responses.

[` @JaeJeiJay_]

Kaya recently dinelete ko nalang yung sinend kong picture namin. And just let that conversation be preserved by the last last time's event. Wala, hindi lang siguro memorable 'yung time na yun sakaniya na ako ang kasama.

She's probably thinking of others and that's fine.

[` @JaeJeiJay_]

Kaya Multo.

Hindi tayo nagkakasama pero lagi't lagi kitang hinahanap at naiisip kahit na inuunti-unti na kita. Kasi sa totoo lang, ayaw kong gawin 'to.

[` @JaeJeiJay_]

I miss you too, sobra. I love you so much, I love you everyday.

Please take care always.

I want to take care of you too kahit na hindi mo naman talaga ako kailangan sa buhay mo.

This would be my response sa last message mo.

[` @JaeJeiJay_]

Kasi lagi kitang hinahanap-hanap. Gustong gusto ko yung presence at attention na binibigay mo sa'kin.

[` @JaeJeiJay_]

Let's be real.

I do really love you and I care for you so much.

Lagi kang nasa isip ko, kapag pagod ako iniisip kita lagi. Gustong gusto kitang yakapin ng mahigpit and I wanna hold and touch your hands playing with your finger tips as well.

It is all my fucking fault.

[` @JaeJeiJay_]

Maybe for the last time in graduation, I'll hug her tightly and hold her hands. Telling her everything what I feel for her. Grade 11 pa 'to.

It's kinda hard for me dealing all of this alone. That's why I'm slowly and bits by bits removing my attachments sa'yo.

[` @JaeJeiJay_]

That's why I'm here now, no choice but slowly removing you in my mind and heart. Because I don't have any choice.

Still aamin padin naman ako since I'm confident enough that you will cut me off as well because of the invalidations I did so that atleast you'll have the hint why.

[` @JaeJeiJay_]

All I want is to enjoy things with you without any hesitations.

I bet you already know that I like you but it's in the other way around. Because fym it's love but not just simple interest?

Ayaw kitang iinvalidate and make you feel disrespected.

[` @JaeJeiJay_]

I think this is too much???

[` @JaeJeiJay_]

Let's be more matured on our day by day basis.

Surpass your yesterday's self, improve it. Be dynamic.

We're getting older, there's no time for immaturities.

[` @JaeJeiJay_]

Chem
Down fall in front of my face
90 ako last quarter :((
Di kayang i-gaslight ng isang core sub ang specialized sub.

[` @JaeJeiJay_]

Gusto ko nlng muna siguro layuan lahat

[` @JaeJeiJay_]

May defense kami. Hindi pwede, I need to make my mind clear and stable. Sa 24 sana but ewan di ko alam pwede pang magbago ung araw

[` @JaeJeiJay_]

Gusto ko nang tapusin.
Gusto ko nang sumaya ng mapayapa at wala ng iniisip pang iba.

Mahirap but I think this would be the painful and best choice for me.

Is to settle and end everything.

[` @JaeJeiJay_]

Di ko alam kung tama ba tong iniisip at binabalak kong gawin :((