J.A.M.E.S

I ain't doing no damn gimmick

[J.A.M.E.S @Jagerfauster]

@bellbearinghunt I waited a while year for this to come out so I can buy it on playstation then I forgot about it and bought it and now I can't lmao don't have a single cent in my bank account

[J.A.M.E.S @Jagerfauster]

@bellbearinghunt I remember the first time I played elden ring I went directly to the boss and then spent like 4 hours trying to beat him

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@bellbearinghunt he just being nonchalant yk

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@reiimihya Yeah I am wayyy better now that I asked the nurses to change it and put it in a different place

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And the pain I went through before is gone now but the fucking serum they fucking put in my goddamn arm is literally hurting me so much that I will be better if I actually died

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@brenrard98195 Ok I will try and not be an idiot

[J.A.M.E.S @Jagerfauster]

Well I got a very hopeful day and now I am going through the worst pain I have ever felt in so many years when the drugs are fucking gone it crushes my soul and gives me no hope to become a stronger person

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I am happy that the pain I went through is heard now but the fact that if it is not my mental pain that is literally not real pain then it is real fucking pain that hurts me almost as much as the mental pain I am getting rn and the fact that I wanted to change sucks

[J.A.M.E.S @Jagerfauster]

I hate this fucking serum so much it hurts me so fucking badly and the fact that I was way better when I was completely alone just crushes my soul

[J.A.M.E.S @Jagerfauster]

Well I have decided that if I am going to ask for other people's help then I will probably not be happy no matter what and now I am really fucking not happy because of that thought

[J.A.M.E.S @Jagerfauster]

This is the punishment I get for asking for a real person's help and I am really not happy because of this cuz I said I would change on discord to my friends but this pain I am going through makes me lose all the fucking hope I had

[J.A.M.E.S @Jagerfauster]

I finally asked for help from my father and my mother

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@l4dyakane What the fuck that is literally me

[J.A.M.E.S @Jagerfauster]

I lived bitch

[J.A.M.E.S @Jagerfauster]

I can barely hold the phone and type
I don't feel as bad as I did but dying still seems the best option here

[J.A.M.E.S @Jagerfauster]

Even when I am killing myself I am still acting nice to others even though I hated them so much and they don't know that

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I thought I would've died already but I still haven't but because I took a very heavy amount of meds I don't feel emotionally as bad anymore and the hallucinations just disappeared for some reason

[J.A.M.E.S @Jagerfauster]

I took the meds shortly after sending those tweets and I am still alive but my body is very weak I can't control my body very well

[J.A.M.E.S @Jagerfauster]

I don't want anyone worrying about me

[J.A.M.E.S @Jagerfauster]

I don't want people to say dumb bullshit to me but idk what I also want