im so scared. what if something goes wrong. what if i end up regretting in the last moments of my life im so fucking terrified. i wish i can just hold you and we can both go together. im so sick of being alone.
if i do follow through with it at least i'll finally be with him again. only person i ever truly loved or held dear.
suicide will be the death of us both huh. its funny you and i, we used to talk about our futures and how we planned to meet one day and share a cup of mint tea
we might be finally able to share some tea soon <3
i love you more then anything in this world rokakku (liquid). you really have been my only friend. thank you, thank you for being in my life. thank you for being the best friend anyone can ever have. i miss you so fucking much
but this is for the best. all i do is hurt people.
if i die now nobody will be hurt. if i live on and grow old there's a chance someone might love me and miss me and i cant allow that to happen
might go exploring on the train tracks. may as well make my last few moments in my happy place.
nature is the only thing that can relax this broken wreck of a human