grief has genuinely changed me so much as a person. I will never be the same Janay I was last year. Grief can rob you from SO much, and as much as I am putting in the ground work, it’s heavy on most days + it’s beyond challenging to navigate through.
the discipline it takes to walk away from things sometimes. it’s so hard to consciously build a life you want when you’re cognitively used to shutting down.
I love being out of the loop & not caring about others business or opinions or personal choices, especially when it has no negative impact. I don’t care if anyone else’s grass is greener, my grass is green because I choose to focus on bettering myself and my life 💗💘💕
after all the shit ive been through from last year to now, i deserve the most comfortable, happy, fun & peaceful summer. like its the least that the universe could do for me. fuck.
if there’s any regret I have in this life, is me staying in situations way longer than I should’ve. it would’ve saved me from so much stress, deception and heartbreak.
the best thing I have ever done for myself is stay in my bubble. to not say a word to anybody regarding huge updates in my life for some time + genuinely nurture the privacy, happiness and peace being in your bubble brings.
I used to drive myself insane overexplaining someone’s level of inconsideration, only to be gaslit and met with a condescending tone when I approached the conversation in a healthy, respectful way. You HAVE to leave people where they’re at.
Sometimes I feel so weird explaining to someone how inconsiderate they were in a situation. It's like if you didn't feel yourself being a bad person idk what's left to say.
Real is rare and when it's in you it feels so weird to explain
just because you’re not naturally explosive in your reactions to people constantly violating you, doesn’t mean that you still can’t pop off from time to time. don’t let people take advantage of your kindness. I’m still learning this.