Itโs crazy to think that your lifeโs path changes so easily on controlled and uncontrolled decisions that are made on a day-to-day basis. Only looking back you will forever be unable to undo those decisions once they are made. The bad decisions are the ones that take time to fix.
The struggle this year was pretty intense not only for me but for everyone. Iโm thankful for the people that stood by me at my absolute lows and continue to stay with me as we get stronger and grow day by day. You know who you are and I appreciate you. ๐ฑ๐ผ
Clocked in at about 105 hours of work this week. I want to thatโs not why I do it, do it because I fucking need to, have to keep my mind busy, catch my self before my mind wonders. Would you agree if you where put in a position that you didnโt know what to do?
Caught me by surprise, doing things you said you would never do. Iโm expected to just turn my back so easily so quickly. Told it would just get better over time.
Iโm told to give up and move on, live and learn, forget but remember the memories. But honestly through it all I canโt say Iโm ready yet, I believe in you.