The Autistic/ADHD urge to sing (internally and/or externally) lyrics that match what someone has just said, because: your brain instinctively connects words with corresponding lyrics; and you know the lyrics to so many songs.
im trying to avoid AI entirely bc it made me stupid academically and i found out it’s bad for the environment but i’m realizing now it’s literally shoved down your throat everywhere. every app and website has some ai feature and u can’t even google anymore without ai coming up
I was supposed to have an appointment this week but didn't because my insurance falsely comes up as inactive...and nothing was mentioned to me about the appointment being cancelled..but oh well probably a shit therapist anyway.
People really be saying "oh that's good. The paycheck will be good" in response to my bf working like 72 hrs this week. That's about 43% of the week spent at work and what's left is about 20% of actual time to do something when you subtract meal time and sleeping. Wtf!?
It's fucking nonsense. I worked 50hrs this week and sure the pay is more because I'm hourly but fuck I'm depressed. Literally my last therapy appointment she was like well your paycheck will be good. Lmao like what's it matter when it makes me WANT TO DIE.
I think I've discovered that if you hate yourself you're going to hate your life as well but if that's true can you love yourself and still hate life as well?
My brain likes to tell me I'm friends with people I've hung out with like twice or used to be friends with when we were younger. Then I get hurt when I'm not invited to their birthday parties or weddings. Like stop I'm not even apart of their life of course they didn't invite me.
I've literally messaged over 150 different people trying to make friends in the last few years and only like 2 ended up actually making it to hanging out but then they just end and I never hear from them again. I just want more friends genuine friends.
I have so many questions regarding relationships platonic and romantic. I feel like I'm always wanting less in romantic relationships and craving so much in platonic relationships. It seems soo hard to make friends and I don't understand why.
Tbh I can't tell if what I want is what I actually want or if it's just my mental illness taking over. Do I actually not want to be in a relationship or am I just trying to isolate myself? So many questions and no answers.
I feel like I'm doing everything wrong with my life 🙃 I'm sad and idk how to fix it. I've been trying to apply to jobs but it seems like everything is for sales or requires a bachelor degree. I want to be one of those people that doesn't have thoughts.
people who say "well trump was president in 2016 you'll live 🤓" do not realize tens of thousands of people died because he downplayed a pandemic and women today are dying because of the 3 supreme court justices he appointed