i gave you everything I had left in me, and you still looked right through it like it was nothing. I broke myself open trying to be the person you needed I stayed up rewriting messages I was too scared to send, I cried in silence so you wouldn’t hear how much it was killing me, I smiled through conversations while my chest felt like it was caving in.
I waited for your texts like they were the only thing keeping me breathing. I gave you space when all I wanted was to beg you to stay. I let you reach for me only when you felt like it, and I made it easy for you every single time.
I put your peace above my own pain every single day. I handed you my trust even after it had already been shattered. I stayed when every part of me was screaming to protect myself.
I tore down every wall, every boundary, every rule I ever made for my own heart just so you could have all of me without resistance. I gave you love I’ve never given anyone else. And it still wasn’t enough.
WHEN A NARCISSIST IS LIVING A DOUBLE LIFE, THEY OFTEN DISPLAY PATTERNS OF DECEPTION, MANIPULATION, AND INCONSISTENCY. HERE ARE SOME KEY SIGNS TO WATCH FOR:
the hardest thing I've learned this year is that you can never force someone to communicate and work things out. you can't beg someone to see that you're worth fighting for and i stand by that now
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