As you get older.. you should wanna carry yourself differently. Your mindset should be different. Your morals should be different. Your choices should be different. It's certain things you can entertain & certain things you have no business entertaining anymore. You should always think HIGHLY of yourself to the point you know some things don't deserve your energy. At this age you should be mature enough to know the importance of self value.
Aaliyah’s Akasha in QUEEN OF THE DAMNED (2002) is a big reason the film still has a cult following. Aaliyah carried herself with the kind of presence that made an ancient vampire queen feel believable.
Do not let people gaslight you into thinking that duality does not exist. You can be grateful and annoyed. You can want more and be grateful for what you have. You can be angry and frustrated and still be grateful. A lot of religious and spiritual gaslighting out here.
Please fall in love with someone who genuinely wants you, patiently waits for your messages, understands you even in your madness, talks to you after a fight. The right person sees the mess and moods but still chooses you.