my therapist taught me to interrupt my anxious thinking with thoughts like: "what if things work out" and "What if all my hard work pays off?" so, i'm passing that onto you wherever you are, whatever you're leaving, or whomever you're becoming.
Commit to a routine/schedule. Get in shape. Cut people off. Set boundaries. Ignore calls & start saying NO. Watch how your life gets better. Thank me later!
i cannot stress this enough. build a routine. build habits. wake up every day and get used to being productive, one day at a time. do this for long enough and eventually you'll be at your goal without even realizing it.