embarrassed i was born
sorry for existing
i deserve to be tortur3d
i have no passions or interests(no personality, no purpose of living)
disgusting and ugly
@IwaHatesU be consistent and one day you will wake up not feeling disgusting anymore..i feel the same way and i hate myself sm i js want to feel comfortable in my skin..feel my bones..less disgusting..u can do it¡¡
i fucked up so bad and in one week of binging i put on 6kg. now i have to fast again. this time for 2 weeks then omad. i will never feel proud again of my progress. when i do it i fall into a binge cycle. i wish i was kidnapped and left to starv3 for a few weeks in a basement.kms
this is who i am. drew it 2 years ago when i was extremely close to suic2de. now i js got used to it. im tired. ik my horrible disgusting self wont actually do it. till when will i rot..
i need to be tiny and small like this. if i cant make myself disappear, then i have to try and occupy as less space as i can. im a sh1t and i dont deserve anything anyway. (js sum to make myself not forget today ill fast)
I actually can’t believe how much a binge changes your appearance. Two days after and my face is still swollen, my collarbones and chest bones are still gone. I can’t keep doing this. Sugar makes me ugly.
i know its my fault i fell into a binge cycle again but..what if my friend js didint bring me that cake..i feel that triggered everything. ik its my lack of self control but i wish there was no cake. Today i thought id fast or do omad..it was worse than yesterday. my stomach cry
i know its my fault i fell into a binge cycle again but..what if my friend js didint bring me that cake..i feel that triggered everything. ik its my lack of self control but i wish there was no cake. Today i thought id fast or do omad..it was worse than yesterday. my stomach cry
@lolaflowr it made me actually consider suicid3 cz i keep falling into the same cycle after literally living the worst nightmares ever(i have really bad BED) i js wanna di3 at this point
yea i cant do this. i cant go to school. ill starve this time and ill make sure ill get so sick ill have to be hospitalised. anything but school im so scared
trapped in bathroom because im too afraid to leave 🙂. id like to jump from the roof of the skl but i binged yesterday and i dont want to make a mess there lol
i fucked the fuck up i fucking want to die. dhy do i destroy everything all the time. ihope i f die and get tortur3d. i put on more than 1kg. i gen deserve the worst treatment.ill never make me belive im doing sum good or progress cz i m a failure i repeat the samw mistakes
wow binged. idk why but weighing myself js made me agitated and anxious and led me to f binging idk ill be back on here after 2 weeks. i have to fast again and then omad for another week and just then ill weigh myself again
its over. i js weighed myself and IM NOT happy with what ive seen. i remember 2 years ago during the worst binge cycle of my life i had about 60-65 kg i think. now I have 56 ill cry. i was 54 before. and my goal weight is 48 ish i think. till december i have to do it