i never thought i would make it to being 18. I constantly thought if i checked out things would be fine without me. And i begged the world to take me out naturally maybe then it would've been peaceful. I am 23 now, and I look at everything I have achieved and told myself this is something I would've never experienced if I was gone. I would've never met my Oshi that kept me going with hope before he passed. I would've never seen my siblings and friends grow into being beautiful people. I would've never met my friends that would mean the world to me. As stupid as it sounded, I wondered to myself if the other Annie's had a better time in their life than I was. It takes so much to keep going, but it makes you so much more beautiful when you hang on. I read chats, dms, emails, and comments of how people tell me I make their life much more enjoyable just by being me. I couldn't honestly understand how. Please hang on, no matter how hard it gets. I'm sorry this life hasn't been so kind. You matter, so much more than you think. 🩷