in order to become a better person, you must first realize how horrible you really are. not in the dramatic sense, but in the quiet ways you sabotage yourself, repeat unhealthy patterns, hurt people who care about you, or tolerate what wounds you. you cannot grow if you keep pretending you're innocent in the story you created.
All this and you’re still making five yr plans. All this and you still worry about double texting. All this and you’re still counting calories and sucking in your stomach. All this and you still can’t forgive your parents. All this and you’re still waiting for someone to go first
"How can I change my mindset and be more positive about things?"
Not even 'positive,' because, honestly, in life I also love sadness. I love anger. I love to feel all of that."
I don’t think the pinnacle of life’s goal is happiness, actually. Maybe just more peaceful thinking.
— Alysa Liu
grew older, i learned that the key to surviving the day is not positivity. it's acceptance. accepting that not all days are good and happy. you will have bad days. you make mistakes. you fail. you mess up. everything’s not going to fall into place and that is completely okay
that figure skater lady is genuinely hopecore to me because wdym she quit skating at 16, fucked off for years, then came back and said "i'll do it again my way" and won gold. wdym she looks like the personification of joy while skating IN THE OLYMPICS. maybe we all have a chance
friendly reminder:
you can start anytime.
you can brush your teeth in the middle of the day. you can wash the dishes at 2am. you can do things outside the normal times assigned by society.